qu'est que ce?

[smartblondejoke]

so, i just finished cleaning up one of my best parties this summer... well hell, I thought it was a success... mudslides, poker, nachos, and road trip; WHO COULD ASK FOR More? other than my two best friends to stay in the same zip code for me or for that matter having my life as i know it remain stable... but that would be out of the question wouldnt it? too impossible... FUCK! i cant take it. its selfish and im a horrible person but im currently living in an uncomfortable state... dashboard, taking back sunday, bright eyes, and him lyrics are flashing through teh back of my head and im on the verge of tears because the last two days were the shittiest ones ive had in the last year... a year of years that is... FROM 10 day new years party at my cabin, to kayak race at senior picnic, remember usher at prom... i do! and it seems like it cant happen anymore... none of it can; they say when you grow older you minimalize, cut out all the bullshit, focus on teh important things- my dads been trying to have me do this for years. I FINALLY DID! i ahve 4 main people in teh center of my universe. ryan, cameron, matt, and madison.. does everyone under-fucking-stand that 50% of my whole life is currently on vacation for 4 months... DO WE GET THAT? i cant even finish this.

CALL ME A SAFE BET... IM BETTING IM NOT