The Summer of My Discontent
I am longing longing longing to move back to Austin, where I have both family and friends in the flesh. Due to financial issues, I don't know how feasible this is, BUT....it sure bears investigation. Just starting that process overwhelms me but I have to remember that I'm an adult now & no one else knows what's best for me than ME.
Since leaving Austin, I've lost my mother and stepdad in a carwreck, my only sister to myasthenia gravis, my husband to kidney failure, my father to brain cancer, my best friend (DeeDee) to organ failure and cancer. Life is just too short (and toooo long) to be this alone. I've tried like hell for the last few years to talk myself out of being lonesome and homesick. It hasn't worked, and I'm paying much too high a price, because I feel spiritually and emotionally D-E-A-D when I turn everything off or stuff it down and try to ignore it all.
So I am throwing this out at the Universe, in hopes that some of it will stick and bear fruit.
Since leaving Austin, I've lost my mother and stepdad in a carwreck, my only sister to myasthenia gravis, my husband to kidney failure, my father to brain cancer, my best friend (DeeDee) to organ failure and cancer. Life is just too short (and toooo long) to be this alone. I've tried like hell for the last few years to talk myself out of being lonesome and homesick. It hasn't worked, and I'm paying much too high a price, because I feel spiritually and emotionally D-E-A-D when I turn everything off or stuff it down and try to ignore it all.
So I am throwing this out at the Universe, in hopes that some of it will stick and bear fruit.