And On It Goes
Just a quick note to announce that I'm still alive. While still in the initial grieving place, there are several weeks I can't remember. I sat/slept in the recliner with the tv on. I lost 20 lbs that I didn't need to lose and ended up in the hospital for a few days. Another contributing factor was frequent fainting & falling. I think I just hadn't been eating enough or sleeping well.
When my electricity and phone got turned off, it shocked me back to semi-live. I had the money in the bank but apparently didn't pay these for almost 2 months. I got to spend 2 nites at Dan and Dee Dee's and I actually enjoyed myself. They've been such a comfort & drag me outta the house to do stuff so I don't isolate myself. My son has called me every Sunday to check up (he NEVER used to call) & told me he's trying to be a better son. So I have had some blessings and comfort from friends and family.
I will be going to grief counseling as soon as I make an appt (hopefully tomorrow). Though I don't like it, I'm getting used to living with just me and the cat and I haven't had any panic over that anymore. I've even been able to think about funny things Michael used to say, his adorable acting-silly facial expressions, without falling apart. DeeDee has reminded me of lots of little mischievious things he did, and make me laugh.
I have a few projects to work on (getting additional medical records & hopefully an MRI) for my disability hearing) and still trying to get Kate's van titled in my name). The van thing is a nightmare and deserves a post of it's own, on another day. I've brought my large brother in, as a final resort, before I file a police report on her lawyer for theft). Hopefully, my bro will intimidate said lawyer into surendering the title,Kate's death certificate, other important papers, and her other property).
It's late and Gustopher is loudly meowing at me to join him to go nighty nite. Hope everyone here is doing ok. I think about each of you often & send you good thoughts.
When my electricity and phone got turned off, it shocked me back to semi-live. I had the money in the bank but apparently didn't pay these for almost 2 months. I got to spend 2 nites at Dan and Dee Dee's and I actually enjoyed myself. They've been such a comfort & drag me outta the house to do stuff so I don't isolate myself. My son has called me every Sunday to check up (he NEVER used to call) & told me he's trying to be a better son. So I have had some blessings and comfort from friends and family.
I will be going to grief counseling as soon as I make an appt (hopefully tomorrow). Though I don't like it, I'm getting used to living with just me and the cat and I haven't had any panic over that anymore. I've even been able to think about funny things Michael used to say, his adorable acting-silly facial expressions, without falling apart. DeeDee has reminded me of lots of little mischievious things he did, and make me laugh.
I have a few projects to work on (getting additional medical records & hopefully an MRI) for my disability hearing) and still trying to get Kate's van titled in my name). The van thing is a nightmare and deserves a post of it's own, on another day. I've brought my large brother in, as a final resort, before I file a police report on her lawyer for theft). Hopefully, my bro will intimidate said lawyer into surendering the title,Kate's death certificate, other important papers, and her other property).
It's late and Gustopher is loudly meowing at me to join him to go nighty nite. Hope everyone here is doing ok. I think about each of you often & send you good thoughts.