I'm so freakin bored!!!!!!
the only reason I'm writing in this is cause I'm bored...but I don't have anything to really write about...
well I kinda do...
last night...I had the best dream I've had in like a year!!!! thats big for me cause of all the dreams I've had...horrible leaves me with dried tears in the morning...
in this dream I was sooo happy...I was having a blast I was loving life...I was having an awesome freakin time with all my friends we had a blast on these warm summer nights...everything was greattttt!!!!!!! I woke up sooooooo happyyyyy just thinking of that dream brings a smile to my face omg!!!!!
I keep talking about this big life change or whatever in my entries...I was gonna erase them...but why? you wanna know me well there ya go I go thro some really heavy crap I wish my life upon nobody trust me I'm not a drama queen I keep my probs to myself but when I get overwhelmed by so manyyyy then I have to say something. Well like I've stated before I'm sick of everything I'm done with it but FOR SURE THIS TIME!!!!!!!
I'm listening to my country right now n I'm soooooo freakin happy...n loving life...for what reason who knows I don't care anymore...if u have a prob with me its ur prob not mine anymore!!!!!! I used to go by: don't leave anything unresolved cause it comes back to u later on...well guess what thats out I don't care if anything gets solved anymore as long as I don't have to deal with it!!!!!!!! I'm sick of being depressed!!!!!!!!!!! its horrible of how I felt I'm not saying that there wasn't any good reasons why I felt like it I just don't care about it anymore at all about any of my problems!!! but if they come back to me...I'm not backing down at all I'm fighting thro it all the wayyyyy
my final decision is that I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!! I'm sure u can now get what I was going thro...
besides that tomorrow I think were going to the Sabas lol I love goin over there greatt times lol I think we need to buy some fireworks my dads sayin no...but I'm sure he'll change his mind tomorrow lol if not I guess I'm buying some I don't care I love fireworks lol omg do I miss Monroe ones omgggggg I miss them sooo muchhhhhh
but its all good we'll have a good time tomorrow :-) tues I go back to work 9-3 :-/ I have a game at 6 where who knows I didn't look yet lol idk forget tues I'm gonna go see bout tomorrow lol byez
well I kinda do...
last night...I had the best dream I've had in like a year!!!! thats big for me cause of all the dreams I've had...horrible leaves me with dried tears in the morning...
in this dream I was sooo happy...I was having a blast I was loving life...I was having an awesome freakin time with all my friends we had a blast on these warm summer nights...everything was greattttt!!!!!!! I woke up sooooooo happyyyyy just thinking of that dream brings a smile to my face omg!!!!!
I keep talking about this big life change or whatever in my entries...I was gonna erase them...but why? you wanna know me well there ya go I go thro some really heavy crap I wish my life upon nobody trust me I'm not a drama queen I keep my probs to myself but when I get overwhelmed by so manyyyy then I have to say something. Well like I've stated before I'm sick of everything I'm done with it but FOR SURE THIS TIME!!!!!!!
I'm listening to my country right now n I'm soooooo freakin happy...n loving life...for what reason who knows I don't care anymore...if u have a prob with me its ur prob not mine anymore!!!!!! I used to go by: don't leave anything unresolved cause it comes back to u later on...well guess what thats out I don't care if anything gets solved anymore as long as I don't have to deal with it!!!!!!!! I'm sick of being depressed!!!!!!!!!!! its horrible of how I felt I'm not saying that there wasn't any good reasons why I felt like it I just don't care about it anymore at all about any of my problems!!! but if they come back to me...I'm not backing down at all I'm fighting thro it all the wayyyyy
my final decision is that I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!! I'm sure u can now get what I was going thro...
besides that tomorrow I think were going to the Sabas lol I love goin over there greatt times lol I think we need to buy some fireworks my dads sayin no...but I'm sure he'll change his mind tomorrow lol if not I guess I'm buying some I don't care I love fireworks lol omg do I miss Monroe ones omgggggg I miss them sooo muchhhhhh
but its all good we'll have a good time tomorrow :-) tues I go back to work 9-3 :-/ I have a game at 6 where who knows I didn't look yet lol idk forget tues I'm gonna go see bout tomorrow lol byez