(no subject)
today was a good day gone bad
i had tons of fun with friends at baldwin park
have a date for tomarrow night :)
bonding time with my parents
my aunt and uncle came in from tennessee
got to watch dirty dancing havanna nights
read a lot
and yet
im still upset
soemone erlier
made a comment about my brother
asking me how he was and all
and it was hard telling that that in reality
i had no idea because i havent talke to him
since march 16
he has sort of become a sore subject to me latley
and it hurts
i miss him, i miss my brother
he was a major influence in my life
and i used to look up to him
i no longer do that
he told me that no matter what happened with the family
that he would still call me
and that he still loves me
well if you still love me and care about me
then why havent you called me?
why is it that in the past 5 conversations
i have been the one who calls 4 of those times
and the only time you called me
was to tell me happy birthday
why did you come all the way down to tampa from tennessee
to see my moms parents
but not drive just two more hours
to see your baby sister
tell me why i havent seen you in a year
and before that
i hadnt seen you in two years
he was a major part of my life
and latley now more then ever
ive started to feel like an only child
the past 6 years
have slowly started to become like this
and it doesnt make me happy at all
my best friend, my brother, yea not really part of my life anymore
thats all ive got to say.
i had tons of fun with friends at baldwin park
have a date for tomarrow night :)
bonding time with my parents
my aunt and uncle came in from tennessee
got to watch dirty dancing havanna nights
read a lot
and yet
im still upset
soemone erlier
made a comment about my brother
asking me how he was and all
and it was hard telling that that in reality
i had no idea because i havent talke to him
since march 16
he has sort of become a sore subject to me latley
and it hurts
i miss him, i miss my brother
he was a major influence in my life
and i used to look up to him
i no longer do that
he told me that no matter what happened with the family
that he would still call me
and that he still loves me
well if you still love me and care about me
then why havent you called me?
why is it that in the past 5 conversations
i have been the one who calls 4 of those times
and the only time you called me
was to tell me happy birthday
why did you come all the way down to tampa from tennessee
to see my moms parents
but not drive just two more hours
to see your baby sister
tell me why i havent seen you in a year
and before that
i hadnt seen you in two years
he was a major part of my life
and latley now more then ever
ive started to feel like an only child
the past 6 years
have slowly started to become like this
and it doesnt make me happy at all
my best friend, my brother, yea not really part of my life anymore
thats all ive got to say.