the tribe has spoken
everything is going to shit again. i think that every sunday is going to be my "i'm stressed as fuck and want to shoot myself" day.
i don't know what the deal is with school...i hate my classes because they are so super hard. why is is that i couldnt' go to a stupid school where i'd ace everything and be the smart kid in class like i was during NT? fuck, why couldn't i have just done that?? why did i have to go to Grinnell where everyone is intimidatingly smart and i'm stuck in my chair freaking out.
amy is moving out of our dorm into a single. i don't want to deal with having a new girl come in as liz's roommate and having to deal with people thinking that she's so cool and whatever. not that i am, but i'm so happy and comfortable in my group of friends that i don't want some little intrusion in the form of another girl. what if brent likes her? what if she likes brent? what if i get screwed over and she forms friendships with DJ and irina and brent and sean and i get edged out? i already feel like i'm not the "coolest" of the group, i'm gonna be like survivor and get voted out of the tribe.
bah humbug...fuck school i've got an anthropology lab due wednesday that i haven't even processed and then a major fifteen percent of my grade test on friday on the same material that i haven't processed. spanish is a fuckload of work that i don't want to do because its tedious and boring. and i've put off doing my math because i just didn't feel like dealing with sines and cosines for two hours with irina. i don't fucking know! i want to go home where i knew that goral smoked the chem chemicals so i could goof off and sra herrera loved me so i could fuck around and still get an A...
oh blow me
i'm going to bed
~Steph
i don't know what the deal is with school...i hate my classes because they are so super hard. why is is that i couldnt' go to a stupid school where i'd ace everything and be the smart kid in class like i was during NT? fuck, why couldn't i have just done that?? why did i have to go to Grinnell where everyone is intimidatingly smart and i'm stuck in my chair freaking out.
amy is moving out of our dorm into a single. i don't want to deal with having a new girl come in as liz's roommate and having to deal with people thinking that she's so cool and whatever. not that i am, but i'm so happy and comfortable in my group of friends that i don't want some little intrusion in the form of another girl. what if brent likes her? what if she likes brent? what if i get screwed over and she forms friendships with DJ and irina and brent and sean and i get edged out? i already feel like i'm not the "coolest" of the group, i'm gonna be like survivor and get voted out of the tribe.
bah humbug...fuck school i've got an anthropology lab due wednesday that i haven't even processed and then a major fifteen percent of my grade test on friday on the same material that i haven't processed. spanish is a fuckload of work that i don't want to do because its tedious and boring. and i've put off doing my math because i just didn't feel like dealing with sines and cosines for two hours with irina. i don't fucking know! i want to go home where i knew that goral smoked the chem chemicals so i could goof off and sra herrera loved me so i could fuck around and still get an A...
oh blow me
i'm going to bed
~Steph