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It's days like this that it's simply excruciating to be conscious.
I slept most of the day away. I was asleep from 10 am to 1 pm. I got up for two hours to eat and read a little, then I passed out again until 6 pm.
All I want to do is read and sleep.
Reading, for me, is a form of unconsciousness. It allows me to forget myself for hours at a time.
I've been to only one of my classes this week. So far, I've missed two tests and several homework assignments. I can't say I really give a shit.
It's not that I'm lazy. I just don't see the point. If I had a reason to try, I would, but I don't. As far as I see it, things stay the same.
If God has any mercy, he'll give me a fucking aneurysm right about now. Or maybe I'll swallow my tongue in my sleep. Yeah.
Fuck.
The worst part is, I think I know the root to my problem. I know that if you were here right now, I wouldn't feel like this. I would be happy and motivated and... fuck.
I hate you for it.
I slept most of the day away. I was asleep from 10 am to 1 pm. I got up for two hours to eat and read a little, then I passed out again until 6 pm.
All I want to do is read and sleep.
Reading, for me, is a form of unconsciousness. It allows me to forget myself for hours at a time.
I've been to only one of my classes this week. So far, I've missed two tests and several homework assignments. I can't say I really give a shit.
It's not that I'm lazy. I just don't see the point. If I had a reason to try, I would, but I don't. As far as I see it, things stay the same.
If God has any mercy, he'll give me a fucking aneurysm right about now. Or maybe I'll swallow my tongue in my sleep. Yeah.
Fuck.
The worst part is, I think I know the root to my problem. I know that if you were here right now, I wouldn't feel like this. I would be happy and motivated and... fuck.
I hate you for it.