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I saw Valerie yesterday for the first time since Sep of 2002. After she got married I never saw her again. I feel like I shouldn't talk to her because she is married. I always ask if her husband is cool about shit.
As I was talking to her I finally realized what it is about this place. It just doesn't feel like home. Not so much that I guess as that it just doesn't feel comfortable. I dont feel cozy. I thought about putting a few posters up but I dont think that will help. I actually managed to find places for my dragons. Also I finally figured out why Im not sleeping. This bed sucks. Its like a plastic foam nasty uncomfortable thing and by back always hurts in the morning. I miss the bed I slept in in Upland. Not to mention that I started the ab workout that I used to do when I was working out in Saudi Arabia. Man my abs are so sore that it feels like I have a stomach ache constantly. And they hurt a lot. Its the second day and they are still sore.
Valerie's mom called me on the phone from Mexico. They had to move back down there because they were broke. It was cute. Her parents always loved me. A lot more than her husband wierd enough. He thought that they were trashy people or somthing. Her mother even said that since my mom was dead that she could be my mom for the time being. She told me not to feel lonely and that her doors were always open if I wanted to stop by.
I haven't told my father about this. He will probably be glad, stupid racist. He never really asked anything about my girl other than "Is she still white?"
As for the whole Jaymeeh thing. Im ok. Yeah i still miss her. I still care about her. I kinda feel bad about that last convo and calling her ugly or whatever but really she sort of started trying to make me feel bad saying her life was a lot better without me and so and so was hot. So I threw it back and being sober it was fucked up. But I HAD TO DO IT. Cause I was still walking around with those phrases of "I think your the one" and "I hope we get back together" in my head. I needed the closure. For what its worth if she reads this. Im sorry. I do still think she is hot. The fucked up part about it is that now that I finally do have closure I could probably be her friend. Haha Now that she hates my guts. I miss my Best friend.
SHe tried to say that I was getting rejected by girls. Funny thing is that I have not even tried at all to hit on anyone. Yeah there was the yahoo thing but I think thats my fault. I put stuff on there about my Gf breaking up with me. They see that and think. "I don't want to be a rebound". I need to change it.
Chris also said that I was welcome to go and visit him in Denver. I might go within the next few weeks.
The wierd part now is getting my old life back. What was it like before Jaymeeh?
I think she knows this but all of those places that I had taken her on dates to. I had gone there a few months earlier by myself while I was living with my stepdad. I would walk around in those museums and stuff and wonder when I would have a girl to bring along with me. A few of them i had really not gone to. It also served as an excuse to go back to places that I had not gone before, or at least in a long time like the San Diego Wild Animal Park and Sea World it was fun. Awww so much for that trip to San Diego we were supposed to take, I was excited about it. ewww now she will probably go with Justin. Yep, thats where he wil ask her to do the BF/GF thing. While timing it with the STD test he'll get some. If he is smart about it. That is what I would do.
No but basically what I have to go on is my time in the Army and the short time in my Old apartment in Pomona where I was single for only about 2 months before meeting Jaymeeh. In both cases it was like this. school/Army all day then id finish and eat, then video games all day, then some porn, then more video games. Id listen to my headphones and air guitar for hours in my room by myself. Hahah twice I got caught by roomates in the Army Air guitaring and jumping around my room. I tried to act like I was stretching. LMAO. I know they knew knew what I was doing as I was sweating and had no breath left.
Then off to the movies. There were times when I had seen every movie in the 24 screen theatre. On the weekends there were times when I would not even come out of my room and live off of a pizza. That was until my last year when I joined the Band troublebound, similarly the Grimes in pomona. Then I met Kryztal through troublebound and Jaymeeh through the Grimes. Wierd.
Well I started calling old girls that I was talking to when Jaymeeh and I first met. I was probably gonna talk to melissa today. See what she is up to. Then there was that one girl Yvette. She asked me for my number after the first date I went on with Jaymeeh at the show we played while she was at the river with her poppa. Im thinking of inviting Laura to come down from Chicago so I can take her to Disney land like I had promised. We are talking once again. Her brother lives in Los Angeles now so it would be a chance to see him as well. He has a Bachelor's in math and a masters incomputer sience. Her dad was a chemical engineer. He quit his last 2 quarters to inherit the family car sales center.
eww then there was lexi. She got pissed cause she was supposed to visit a few weeks after I met Jaymeeh. And I think she bought her plane ticket....From London to LA. Yikes. She was really pissed when I told her I had a Gf.
Then Emily the girl whose house I never found in LA and almost made me miss the show at the Rock Ranch. Damn she was extremely hot. Half Australian and Half Salvadorian. Ill try to drop her a line and see she is doing. I was thinking about asking that Amanda chick out on a date but I dont want to seem too forward. She is young after all only 19.
Well just gotta get back to the old room monster thing of being single. Its been a while. It was fun last night thought. I played Dungeons& Dragons online and mada friend from Iowa.
Anyways,
This is Supreme Allied Commander of the the 8th Cadian 7th Infantry Company Signing off.
End Transmission........
hahaha
Laters...
As I was talking to her I finally realized what it is about this place. It just doesn't feel like home. Not so much that I guess as that it just doesn't feel comfortable. I dont feel cozy. I thought about putting a few posters up but I dont think that will help. I actually managed to find places for my dragons. Also I finally figured out why Im not sleeping. This bed sucks. Its like a plastic foam nasty uncomfortable thing and by back always hurts in the morning. I miss the bed I slept in in Upland. Not to mention that I started the ab workout that I used to do when I was working out in Saudi Arabia. Man my abs are so sore that it feels like I have a stomach ache constantly. And they hurt a lot. Its the second day and they are still sore.
Valerie's mom called me on the phone from Mexico. They had to move back down there because they were broke. It was cute. Her parents always loved me. A lot more than her husband wierd enough. He thought that they were trashy people or somthing. Her mother even said that since my mom was dead that she could be my mom for the time being. She told me not to feel lonely and that her doors were always open if I wanted to stop by.
I haven't told my father about this. He will probably be glad, stupid racist. He never really asked anything about my girl other than "Is she still white?"
As for the whole Jaymeeh thing. Im ok. Yeah i still miss her. I still care about her. I kinda feel bad about that last convo and calling her ugly or whatever but really she sort of started trying to make me feel bad saying her life was a lot better without me and so and so was hot. So I threw it back and being sober it was fucked up. But I HAD TO DO IT. Cause I was still walking around with those phrases of "I think your the one" and "I hope we get back together" in my head. I needed the closure. For what its worth if she reads this. Im sorry. I do still think she is hot. The fucked up part about it is that now that I finally do have closure I could probably be her friend. Haha Now that she hates my guts. I miss my Best friend.
SHe tried to say that I was getting rejected by girls. Funny thing is that I have not even tried at all to hit on anyone. Yeah there was the yahoo thing but I think thats my fault. I put stuff on there about my Gf breaking up with me. They see that and think. "I don't want to be a rebound". I need to change it.
Chris also said that I was welcome to go and visit him in Denver. I might go within the next few weeks.
The wierd part now is getting my old life back. What was it like before Jaymeeh?
I think she knows this but all of those places that I had taken her on dates to. I had gone there a few months earlier by myself while I was living with my stepdad. I would walk around in those museums and stuff and wonder when I would have a girl to bring along with me. A few of them i had really not gone to. It also served as an excuse to go back to places that I had not gone before, or at least in a long time like the San Diego Wild Animal Park and Sea World it was fun. Awww so much for that trip to San Diego we were supposed to take, I was excited about it. ewww now she will probably go with Justin. Yep, thats where he wil ask her to do the BF/GF thing. While timing it with the STD test he'll get some. If he is smart about it. That is what I would do.
No but basically what I have to go on is my time in the Army and the short time in my Old apartment in Pomona where I was single for only about 2 months before meeting Jaymeeh. In both cases it was like this. school/Army all day then id finish and eat, then video games all day, then some porn, then more video games. Id listen to my headphones and air guitar for hours in my room by myself. Hahah twice I got caught by roomates in the Army Air guitaring and jumping around my room. I tried to act like I was stretching. LMAO. I know they knew knew what I was doing as I was sweating and had no breath left.
Then off to the movies. There were times when I had seen every movie in the 24 screen theatre. On the weekends there were times when I would not even come out of my room and live off of a pizza. That was until my last year when I joined the Band troublebound, similarly the Grimes in pomona. Then I met Kryztal through troublebound and Jaymeeh through the Grimes. Wierd.
Well I started calling old girls that I was talking to when Jaymeeh and I first met. I was probably gonna talk to melissa today. See what she is up to. Then there was that one girl Yvette. She asked me for my number after the first date I went on with Jaymeeh at the show we played while she was at the river with her poppa. Im thinking of inviting Laura to come down from Chicago so I can take her to Disney land like I had promised. We are talking once again. Her brother lives in Los Angeles now so it would be a chance to see him as well. He has a Bachelor's in math and a masters incomputer sience. Her dad was a chemical engineer. He quit his last 2 quarters to inherit the family car sales center.
eww then there was lexi. She got pissed cause she was supposed to visit a few weeks after I met Jaymeeh. And I think she bought her plane ticket....From London to LA. Yikes. She was really pissed when I told her I had a Gf.
Then Emily the girl whose house I never found in LA and almost made me miss the show at the Rock Ranch. Damn she was extremely hot. Half Australian and Half Salvadorian. Ill try to drop her a line and see she is doing. I was thinking about asking that Amanda chick out on a date but I dont want to seem too forward. She is young after all only 19.
Well just gotta get back to the old room monster thing of being single. Its been a while. It was fun last night thought. I played Dungeons& Dragons online and mada friend from Iowa.
Anyways,
This is Supreme Allied Commander of the the 8th Cadian 7th Infantry Company Signing off.
End Transmission........
hahaha
Laters...