(mad_muses)"Like faith needs a doubt, like a freeway out."
"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." -- Martin Luther King, Jr.
It was a progression of sorts.
First I only believed in science. After all that's all I was. Also I was young, stupid and ignorant. Yes they are different things.
Then there was a time, a long time, filled with silence when I believed what ever they told me I was going to believe.
After that, for a short time, I believed in myself.
If you ask I don't believe in the Virgin Mary. But this isn't to say that I disbelieve. When you get right down to it, what I really think on the subject is that her icons will always creep me out.
I do believe in the Blue Lady. When they first asked I don't know or care one way or the other. The last time they asked I lied and said I didn't believe. But they had taught me to. Because it's hard to fear what doesn't exist.
Then I didn't believe in God. It was about the same time that I realized that maybe I shouldn't believe in science either.
I did believe in love. That didn't work out for anyone.
I still believe in music though.
I think a lot of people that say they believe in God often just believe that they have more of a right to live than everyone else. Often what they really believe is hate. Not that I think I'm above hating. But I'll call a spade a spade.
By the time I realized that there was a God to believe in, I wad pretty damned sure that God didn't believe in me. That can really mess your shit up.
Then again having God believe in you isn't really easy either. You'd think it would be, right? I mean, the ultimate being paying attention. But the truth is that God is God. And that's a lot of pots to stir you know? So if God is looking right at you? You bet your ass that you're going to need all the help you can get.
I know I need help. God is a better cheat at poker than I am.
Muse: Alec McDowell Winchester/X5-494
'Verse: Wayward Sons
Fandom: Dark Angel
Word count: 351
Open to RP
It was a progression of sorts.
First I only believed in science. After all that's all I was. Also I was young, stupid and ignorant. Yes they are different things.
Then there was a time, a long time, filled with silence when I believed what ever they told me I was going to believe.
After that, for a short time, I believed in myself.
If you ask I don't believe in the Virgin Mary. But this isn't to say that I disbelieve. When you get right down to it, what I really think on the subject is that her icons will always creep me out.
I do believe in the Blue Lady. When they first asked I don't know or care one way or the other. The last time they asked I lied and said I didn't believe. But they had taught me to. Because it's hard to fear what doesn't exist.
Then I didn't believe in God. It was about the same time that I realized that maybe I shouldn't believe in science either.
I did believe in love. That didn't work out for anyone.
I still believe in music though.
I think a lot of people that say they believe in God often just believe that they have more of a right to live than everyone else. Often what they really believe is hate. Not that I think I'm above hating. But I'll call a spade a spade.
By the time I realized that there was a God to believe in, I wad pretty damned sure that God didn't believe in me. That can really mess your shit up.
Then again having God believe in you isn't really easy either. You'd think it would be, right? I mean, the ultimate being paying attention. But the truth is that God is God. And that's a lot of pots to stir you know? So if God is looking right at you? You bet your ass that you're going to need all the help you can get.
I know I need help. God is a better cheat at poker than I am.
Muse: Alec McDowell Winchester/X5-494
'Verse: Wayward Sons
Fandom: Dark Angel
Word count: 351
Open to RP