The month i died.
I got 6 more days of summer school left. So far - if i did my math correctly - i should be getting a 80. I have a test tmrw for one of the hardest chapters in calculus and im not even studying...i procrastinate so much now that it's summer. I'm so packed with homework, at the same time i got work to attend to...it's so frustrating trying to manage time properly.
I started smoking cigarettes again. I hate it, but with summer school going on its very stressful, and i guess its a cheap way of getting some sort of peice of mind. Especially when all your buddies are going out having fun without you. Whatever, they don't do much anywayz except burn nowadays, at least im using my mind instead of frying it...
I wanna get a clothing line up. Just recently my buddy Jack sparked a long lost interest of mine. Design. I used to love photoshop, then i lost interest because nothing inspired me to design anymore. Everything was stationary and there was no forward movement, least i never saw one in terms of design. Everyone was copying one another, and i guess thats just the way things are done these days...monkey see monkey do...
Love. What is love? Ones i thought would be, never turned out the way i wanted them to. Girls who are afraid to commit are girls who are missing the true essential feelings of growth as a human being. Love is complicated, it derives from the mind the venom of insecurity and low self esteem. Is it worth chasing after? Definately.
Lastly, as i finish up another useless livejournal post. When you reach that point where you've had enough turn to yourself and ask, who can i kill? Obviously it's a sin to kill, and so use that frustration, use that anger to do something good for a stranger.... I learned just recently, one of the greatest rewards is the inspiration of a stranger, another life completely different to yours might just rejuvenate you when your down. Understand it or not, just give it a try and do something good, or do something that makes you feel good.
If i die tommorow will you remember me?...
I started smoking cigarettes again. I hate it, but with summer school going on its very stressful, and i guess its a cheap way of getting some sort of peice of mind. Especially when all your buddies are going out having fun without you. Whatever, they don't do much anywayz except burn nowadays, at least im using my mind instead of frying it...
I wanna get a clothing line up. Just recently my buddy Jack sparked a long lost interest of mine. Design. I used to love photoshop, then i lost interest because nothing inspired me to design anymore. Everything was stationary and there was no forward movement, least i never saw one in terms of design. Everyone was copying one another, and i guess thats just the way things are done these days...monkey see monkey do...
Love. What is love? Ones i thought would be, never turned out the way i wanted them to. Girls who are afraid to commit are girls who are missing the true essential feelings of growth as a human being. Love is complicated, it derives from the mind the venom of insecurity and low self esteem. Is it worth chasing after? Definately.
Lastly, as i finish up another useless livejournal post. When you reach that point where you've had enough turn to yourself and ask, who can i kill? Obviously it's a sin to kill, and so use that frustration, use that anger to do something good for a stranger.... I learned just recently, one of the greatest rewards is the inspiration of a stranger, another life completely different to yours might just rejuvenate you when your down. Understand it or not, just give it a try and do something good, or do something that makes you feel good.
If i die tommorow will you remember me?...