Cant sleep
I dunno why but i cant sleep. Maybe because I napped alot today... anyways theres nothing else to do besides ramble on in this thing. I should be sleeping since I have class at 8:30 I guess but when I try I just lay there and think about stupid stuff.
It's weird being so quiet at night, usually Tobe's always with me. I'm used to it during the day but its weird at night because it used to be the only time i had time to myself now i rarely do.
I hope TJ doesnt get sick of me. Sometimes I feel like I am just waiting for something to go wrong. I definately dont want it to but it still feels like I am walking on eggshells sometimes, things are just good and its hard for me to not expect something bad will happen for some reason.
I guess its just me to worry too much and get too anxious about things, but I cant help it. I always am so worried about things that will happen in the long run, I always want to take care of everything now. Its like I think if i do that then I will finally get to a point where I dont have to worry and I can just relax, like its all preparation, but it doesnt work that way. Things never go as you want or expect them too. And people never treat you the way you treat them. THere are very few people you actually can count on to care about you and I am lucky enough to have found one of those people. I guess life is just a mess of learning from getting hurt and learning from hurting others, and learning to appreciate when you arent hurt or hurting someone else, but what can i say if that makes me a little nervous? Maybe its just me and my pessimistic ways, but sweet is never as sweet as it is bitter, and the bitter always seems linger a bit longer.
It's weird being so quiet at night, usually Tobe's always with me. I'm used to it during the day but its weird at night because it used to be the only time i had time to myself now i rarely do.
I hope TJ doesnt get sick of me. Sometimes I feel like I am just waiting for something to go wrong. I definately dont want it to but it still feels like I am walking on eggshells sometimes, things are just good and its hard for me to not expect something bad will happen for some reason.
I guess its just me to worry too much and get too anxious about things, but I cant help it. I always am so worried about things that will happen in the long run, I always want to take care of everything now. Its like I think if i do that then I will finally get to a point where I dont have to worry and I can just relax, like its all preparation, but it doesnt work that way. Things never go as you want or expect them too. And people never treat you the way you treat them. THere are very few people you actually can count on to care about you and I am lucky enough to have found one of those people. I guess life is just a mess of learning from getting hurt and learning from hurting others, and learning to appreciate when you arent hurt or hurting someone else, but what can i say if that makes me a little nervous? Maybe its just me and my pessimistic ways, but sweet is never as sweet as it is bitter, and the bitter always seems linger a bit longer.