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[sman326]

alright like one great thing happened and that would be i bitched ethan out and he listend and was alllike whoa. i was like yesss. kiki was even happy i did it. i think alot of ppl were and just didnt say anything. idk. i dont know alot about things like im debating to tell my mom im bi and shit. im gonna tell my cousin bird and see how he reacts and i know he wont care i tink it wont be a shock either. idk. i was made fun of alot today and shit i wasnt a good mood type person and ppl were pissing the fuck out of me. i hate pat and most ppl do now cause hes a lieing peice of shit and so is ben sherman he needs to die. i hate him. hes saying shit that didnt happen in washington.
so now thurs john this hot mother fucker and shit and im falling for him. i know hell read this and everything cause i told him about my live ournal but idk. i really care about him. i asked him how hed react if i said i love u and hes like id be ok and i was like y and hes like i dont see myself loving guys yet hes bi. and he dont want a bf i really like him tho idk. i wish hed come to his sences and just deal witht eh fact and be like okay i like cock and that means i love men and if i can be with a guy i can lolve one too no just chicks. idk i dont want anything to be mean or nothing i just dont know how to explain that to him.
i just dont knwo why im hur anymore. im so lost in my own thoughts i need to get out of hur.
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