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[sman101102]

Failing the sight of clearance
One chance to get out
I dont leave
But do doubt
The fight begins into a hasty mess
You tell me I am stupid and so much less
Bitch, asshole, cunt and dick
I have heard them all
THey are worse than you killing my body
I walk around doubting what I could be
1, 2, 3, and 10 years
How many years am I gonna be locked in this misery
I tried to leave and you stopped me
Telling me it would be so much better down the road
I have seen the mess from the beginning
It is no less than it was 20 years ago
The fights begin and end
No resolution just broken and spent
Am I all used up?
Am I broken to pieces?
Am I a failure in this life with no reason?
Bills piled
Children raising
This life is not just mine
But alone in this miserable fight
Once again I hear the words fly
I see no end in sight
I want that perfect someone
The one who will complete my union
I want the one where are souls collide
Kind and gentle and not filled with pride
In this life I am sure I will find
That one last ride
I just hope I dont end it by taking my life