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[sman101102]

Why is it that when I talk to ANYONE in my so called "family" that I get the feeling that they are treating me like I am the biggest piece of fucking shit on the face of the planet? Fine you want me to call myself a fucking failure? Okay fine I guess everything that I have read and or heard through the grape vine is true. I AM A FUCKING FAILURE!

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[eeyoresgurl]

my bad if i ever made you feel like shit, but you get what you give other people you kno what im sayin, not sayin you give everybody the shit they give you but well you get the idea. im going through my own shit right now, we all are. thats why i stay to myself alot becuz i hate that i take my shit out on ya'll. so i try my hardest just to let shit roll down my back. but it ends up exploding in me and everyone elses face. im jus sooo use to us fightni you kno. we like oil and what ever don't go with oil lol. thats jus us. we all have our days. yea it was wrong of ol dude to talk shit bout g-pa even tho i never knew him it's all about that respect. he gonna get his tho anyways, they always do. i hate waht they did to aunt myrt. i think it's fucked up how they turn her against us. what did you expect tho. none of them like us. were like the bottom scum of rust on there pretty silver cream can. i've never in my life felt ashamed of what i was but that day it made me feel soo bad that if they knew i was black i would have been casted out even more. what kind of fam is that really? i get where you went with this entry tho. you can't plez anybody, why you think i stopped trying. i do me now, and no one likes it but i can careless you kno. you jus gotta do you sean, thats all you can be. no one can change you but you and you can't change yaself unless you want to. and even tho you are sometimes the biggest pain in my ass lol your you and i accept that. i got love for you even tho i don't sho it. im not goin to tell you not to let shit get to you cuz i still to this day take in what people say, it don't work. you always listen to what people say you may pretend but you always do. it was waaaay wrong how aunt m came at you that day. i felt really bad about that. thats how we all knew she was gone. sooo saddd well i don't want to wrote a whole damn book. so imma go now and leave you with those thoughts. jus kno you still got people who believe in you and love you, there jus scared to say ya kno.

bye bye

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