A Vicious Cycle
Okay there comes a point in time where one feels ashamed to be a man. Why do I say this? Because, okay here it is... I grew up without a father most of my friends have grown up without their fathers, my sister grew up without hers. And now my neices are growing up without their dad. That is what makes me ashamed to be a guy. Guys have nothing on their minds but fucking. Sex sex sex all the fucking time. Then when push comes to shove and there is a BABY involved the guy just up and leaves or is told to leave. Then nothing ever happens he doesn't wonder about that child that TWO people created. I've sat up night wondering what I would say to my dad if I met him what I would do. The answer..... Nothing Sure I'd be pissed off about him not wanting anything to do with me then all of a sudden showing up. Maybe I'd sit there, maybe I'd get up and want to beat the shit outa him. Fuck who knows. I've never known anyone that I could call "dad" and talk to. I've wanted to talk to some of the men in my life but that wont get me anywhere. I have this feeling that whom ever I would talk to would be saying in the back of his mind "G*D I'm glad this kid aint mine, so why is he asking me?" I dunno I just ahve that feeling. Anyhow Here is a song for the mothers out there that are getting things done without the help of a man or someone to help them. Yes there is....
She married when she was twenty
She thought she was ready
Now she's not so sure
She thought she'd done some living
But now she's just wonderin'
What she's living for
Now she's feeling that there's something more
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
She's always lived for tomorrow
She's never learned how
To live for today
She's dyin' to try something foolish
Do something crazy
Or just get away
Something for herself for a change
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
There's a place in the sun that she's never been
Where life is fair and time is a friend
Would she do it the same as she did back then
She looks out the window and wonders again
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
She married when she was twenty
She thought she was ready
Now she's not so sure
She thought she'd done some living
But now she's just wonderin'
What she's living for
Now she's feeling that there's something more
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
She's always lived for tomorrow
She's never learned how
To live for today
She's dyin' to try something foolish
Do something crazy
Or just get away
Something for herself for a change
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
There's a place in the sun that she's never been
Where life is fair and time is a friend
Would she do it the same as she did back then
She looks out the window and wonders again
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there
Is there life out there
So much she hasn't done
Is there life beyond
Her family and her home
She's done what she should
Should she do what she dares
She doesn't want to leave
She's just wonderin
Is there life out there