I laughed the loudest, who'd have known...
I'm still in shock. Adam's Song is so fitting in so many ways, yet I can hear him saying how Blink-182 are complete posers...That it's not real music. I feel bad because I almost feel like I don't have the right to be this upset. Like because I didn't know him well and anything about his mind set for the past couple years or greater...that I don't have the right to cry as much as I have...
But really...does the fact we difted so far apart cancel out the fact I grew up with him? That I loved him like a brother, because I knew him and his family for that long. I was hoping he'd eventually get away from the drugs...that he would become the person I knew he could be...I know some people will say then I didn't like the real him...but I did. He was still just Eric without the drugs. I always hoped things would get better for him...though clearly I didn't know the extent of his pain. And I know I wasn't close enough to him in the end to have been much help. I just hope that he is happier now...that despite the fact he left us...he gets his chance at something good...something that is truly just his. I love you Eric.
So today I'm going to hang out with Amy from Things Remembered. She put in her two weeks notice, I am really happy for her and proud of her. That store is no good. They dont appreciate their employees at all. Promote assholes and step on good employees. I'm thinking maybe we can go to Sheri's and just hang out or something. Maybe I'll call Shel and see if she can come hang out too. It'll be good for all of us. I have to work tomorrow and I know I've got to get my mind set back together to face all the assholes that come to return things at the courtesy desk...and not to mention the people I work with. I am the one person who can't always voice my opinion...I'm also the youngest there. whatever...there are more important things in life. I intend to focus on them. I also think touching base with some of the friends that I've lost touch with will be more important now too. I called Hazel last night...I can't believe it was just last night...time seems to be moving so slow. maybe it's just because I had two days off. I only work three days before I have another two days off. Hopefully I can get the day off for his services. Actually...I will...they will have to work around it or I'll call off sick that day. Well I should go shower and stuff. Later.
But really...does the fact we difted so far apart cancel out the fact I grew up with him? That I loved him like a brother, because I knew him and his family for that long. I was hoping he'd eventually get away from the drugs...that he would become the person I knew he could be...I know some people will say then I didn't like the real him...but I did. He was still just Eric without the drugs. I always hoped things would get better for him...though clearly I didn't know the extent of his pain. And I know I wasn't close enough to him in the end to have been much help. I just hope that he is happier now...that despite the fact he left us...he gets his chance at something good...something that is truly just his. I love you Eric.
So today I'm going to hang out with Amy from Things Remembered. She put in her two weeks notice, I am really happy for her and proud of her. That store is no good. They dont appreciate their employees at all. Promote assholes and step on good employees. I'm thinking maybe we can go to Sheri's and just hang out or something. Maybe I'll call Shel and see if she can come hang out too. It'll be good for all of us. I have to work tomorrow and I know I've got to get my mind set back together to face all the assholes that come to return things at the courtesy desk...and not to mention the people I work with. I am the one person who can't always voice my opinion...I'm also the youngest there. whatever...there are more important things in life. I intend to focus on them. I also think touching base with some of the friends that I've lost touch with will be more important now too. I called Hazel last night...I can't believe it was just last night...time seems to be moving so slow. maybe it's just because I had two days off. I only work three days before I have another two days off. Hopefully I can get the day off for his services. Actually...I will...they will have to work around it or I'll call off sick that day. Well I should go shower and stuff. Later.