so...very..hectic
well i am back for a quicky....that maybe lengthy.
ok, after finals, i got SUPER busy!! like, i came home no earlier than 8:00 everyday last week. and it's happening this week too. i don't ever remeber me being this busy. but i feel on top of things. i have been doing most of my homework and understanding the material. i've been working hard at what i am doing. i feel good, but then, i don't. weird.
ok so folsom was on saturday. this is a huge jazz festival, if you didn't know. we get rated by judges when we perform. there are 3 scores, 1 being the highest and 3 being the lowest. we got all 2's. i was kinda expecting that, but i think we improved a lot from last year, and a lot of people noticed that too. this friday is CMEA, another jazz fesitval. kinda nervous, but yeah. same day as dinner dance. so that'll be a hectic day.
i've started swimming again since i didnt get a part in the play (not sad about). yesturday was my first day, and i am out of shape. but i needed this. i'm really sore, since the last time i swam laps was in july, so definitely not in shape. but i think with jeff's help, i can get better. surprisingly, he was giving me attention and helping me out with some stuff. he NEVER does that with me, so it made me feel better. i worked as hard as i could and pushed myself a lot. with this new attitude i have about working hard and not giving up...i think i may adapt that to swimming. cause before, i never cared.
yesturday, i also started driving training for hours. OMGOSH!! i should not drive! i know it was my first day, but i almost got into a bunch of car accidents and i couldn't control speed and my turns weren't consistenly good. i freakin changed lanes without looking behind me (CRAZY!) AND the lady took me to san francisco. WHY?!?! i got so discouraged....i really don't want to drive!! but i need to get my license. i choose what i do after my license, so yeah. i need it. ugh...the worest part is...my parents don't want to take me driving. my mom is too scared and my dad said he'll do it after i do the 6 hours training. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!?!? i'm probably going to have megan's dad take me. cause seriously, as of right now, i dont have the time and/or the patience to DEAL with my parents about this.
my first mock trials competition was today. i thought i did horribly, but defense ("my" team) won, which i didnt expect. but we did well. prosecution did well. they didn't win, but i felt they did well! woot!! go mock trials!!
gosh, ok i have so many projects! i have english project, ap bio project, and a math project (which i need the details from again). are you kidding me?!?! CRAZY! why have an ap bio project...waste me time personally. and then math??!?! math will never be fun, stop trying to make it be. english, i dont mind. i'm kinda excited about my paper, i just need to get started : \ . oh!! and we have this paper thing for history thats useless, and the book we are reading for it ISN'T ON SPARKNOTES. my teachers are really trying to kill me.
AND! at lunch, i have peer helping, and no me time. on monday i met with ms. aldrich about our talent show thing, and then i had peer helping today and tomorrow and thursday i have csf and ccc. hopefully i'll have nothing on friday. but ugh! i completely forgot to go to GSA!!! ugh! i havent been going, and its cause i have stuff to do on monday! crap crap!!!
i started volunteering again on friday at the library. but this week, i am volunteering on thursday because lemony snicket is coming to ssf. i'm gonna help volunteer over there, instead of friday (b/c of CMEA and dinner dance).
as much as i feel i have everything uncontrol, i feel like everything is out of control. seriously, i don't even have time to eat a real meal anymore (breakfast, lunch, and dinner. yup all 3) my breakfast is always something small and on the go cause my house isnt close to elco, and i dont wake up early. i always have something to do at lunch, and i'm always late to dinner, so i have to heat it up and not eat as much as i want cause i'll get distracted and not do my homework. and today, at mock trials, i really felt dizzy at a few moments. i don't know if it was nerves or not, but if it was, i've never experienced that with nervousness. i just felt like my stomach was empty too.
i dont know if this hectic schedule is GREAT for me. it's nice at times, but it seems like there's just too much stuff thats overpiling. i just hope i dont lose track! thank goodness i quite my job, woot!!
alright, my quick and lengthy entry is over. you can all resume your usual lives now
hanya
ok, after finals, i got SUPER busy!! like, i came home no earlier than 8:00 everyday last week. and it's happening this week too. i don't ever remeber me being this busy. but i feel on top of things. i have been doing most of my homework and understanding the material. i've been working hard at what i am doing. i feel good, but then, i don't. weird.
ok so folsom was on saturday. this is a huge jazz festival, if you didn't know. we get rated by judges when we perform. there are 3 scores, 1 being the highest and 3 being the lowest. we got all 2's. i was kinda expecting that, but i think we improved a lot from last year, and a lot of people noticed that too. this friday is CMEA, another jazz fesitval. kinda nervous, but yeah. same day as dinner dance. so that'll be a hectic day.
i've started swimming again since i didnt get a part in the play (not sad about). yesturday was my first day, and i am out of shape. but i needed this. i'm really sore, since the last time i swam laps was in july, so definitely not in shape. but i think with jeff's help, i can get better. surprisingly, he was giving me attention and helping me out with some stuff. he NEVER does that with me, so it made me feel better. i worked as hard as i could and pushed myself a lot. with this new attitude i have about working hard and not giving up...i think i may adapt that to swimming. cause before, i never cared.
yesturday, i also started driving training for hours. OMGOSH!! i should not drive! i know it was my first day, but i almost got into a bunch of car accidents and i couldn't control speed and my turns weren't consistenly good. i freakin changed lanes without looking behind me (CRAZY!) AND the lady took me to san francisco. WHY?!?! i got so discouraged....i really don't want to drive!! but i need to get my license. i choose what i do after my license, so yeah. i need it. ugh...the worest part is...my parents don't want to take me driving. my mom is too scared and my dad said he'll do it after i do the 6 hours training. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!?!? i'm probably going to have megan's dad take me. cause seriously, as of right now, i dont have the time and/or the patience to DEAL with my parents about this.
my first mock trials competition was today. i thought i did horribly, but defense ("my" team) won, which i didnt expect. but we did well. prosecution did well. they didn't win, but i felt they did well! woot!! go mock trials!!
gosh, ok i have so many projects! i have english project, ap bio project, and a math project (which i need the details from again). are you kidding me?!?! CRAZY! why have an ap bio project...waste me time personally. and then math??!?! math will never be fun, stop trying to make it be. english, i dont mind. i'm kinda excited about my paper, i just need to get started : \ . oh!! and we have this paper thing for history thats useless, and the book we are reading for it ISN'T ON SPARKNOTES. my teachers are really trying to kill me.
AND! at lunch, i have peer helping, and no me time. on monday i met with ms. aldrich about our talent show thing, and then i had peer helping today and tomorrow and thursday i have csf and ccc. hopefully i'll have nothing on friday. but ugh! i completely forgot to go to GSA!!! ugh! i havent been going, and its cause i have stuff to do on monday! crap crap!!!
i started volunteering again on friday at the library. but this week, i am volunteering on thursday because lemony snicket is coming to ssf. i'm gonna help volunteer over there, instead of friday (b/c of CMEA and dinner dance).
as much as i feel i have everything uncontrol, i feel like everything is out of control. seriously, i don't even have time to eat a real meal anymore (breakfast, lunch, and dinner. yup all 3) my breakfast is always something small and on the go cause my house isnt close to elco, and i dont wake up early. i always have something to do at lunch, and i'm always late to dinner, so i have to heat it up and not eat as much as i want cause i'll get distracted and not do my homework. and today, at mock trials, i really felt dizzy at a few moments. i don't know if it was nerves or not, but if it was, i've never experienced that with nervousness. i just felt like my stomach was empty too.
i dont know if this hectic schedule is GREAT for me. it's nice at times, but it seems like there's just too much stuff thats overpiling. i just hope i dont lose track! thank goodness i quite my job, woot!!
alright, my quick and lengthy entry is over. you can all resume your usual lives now
hanya