Fic: To Pass the Test (Sam/Dean, G)
Title: To Pass the Test
Author: smalltrolven
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: G
Wordcount: 500
Warnings: Spoilers for 15.04, “Proverbs 17:3”
Author’s Note: Not my characters, only my words.
Summary: 500 words about how they’ll win
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Dean didn’t tell Sam.
He didn’t tell Sam about why Cas is gone.
He didn’t tell him about their conversation.
So Sam doesn’t know.
And he keeps texting and calling Cas.
And he keeps getting no answer, none.
Dean sees him doing this over and over
And says nothing
Sam finally says something to Dean about
Cas not answering his texts
Expressing his concern for their friend
And Dean says something vague and noncommittal
He doesn’t say don’t expect him back anytime soon
He doesn’t say I’m glad he’s gone
Or I pretty much kicked him out (again) for the pain he caused you
He lets Sam stew about it
Until he sees how sad Sam is
And how the nightmares are getting to him
And then Dean confesses to what he’s done.
He tells Sam about the fight he had with Cas
And how Cas instantly folded and left
Like the coward he is
And how he hopes he doesn’t come back
Because he always screws up everything
And Sam realizes why
Why Dean pushed their only friend away
Because his actions hurt Sam (again).
His actions led to Sam having to kill Rowena
And Dean protects what he loves
Always has always will
it’s the part of his brother he loves the most and almost hates
You did that for me, Sam thinks
Because you love me
But he doesn’t say it, no, not that, not ever
Instead he asks for Dean to stay just for tonight in his room
(In his bed)
To wake him up if he’s having a nightmare
He tells Dean he can’t
H doesn’t want to keep dreaming Chuck’s endings
Doesn’t want to see and feel yet another way they kill each other
And Dean says yes so fast it makes Sam smile
Dean’s there with his his soft pillow and his pajama pants on
And there’s nothing so soft as his brother ready for protective sleep duty
Sam teases him as they fall asleep about the ghost pepper jerky
Dean teases him right back about vegan bacon and his permanent meat man status
And Sam sleeps, and he doesn’t dream, and he wakes up
Happy that Dean is in his bed again
Hopeful that he’ll never leave
Dean’s eyes squint like he doesn’t want to open them
Doesn’t want the dream to be over
Sam finally mans up and whispers the truth
I need you to stay
And Dean smiles, eyes still closed but crinkling at the corners now.
He pulls Sam in close and that’s Sam’s answer
The only one he needs
And maybe this is how they fight
Maybe this is how they win
Because that’s the answer Chuck is least expecting
Because he doesn’t know them
Even though they are his characters
He never seems to see them coming
With their obvious choice already made
We Choose We
A permanent fact of their character
Their love has saved the world more than once
Time to test it once again