I'm a one-man army....in a war against the world.
So to no suprise, Just as things were beinging to look up for me, even more shit hit the fan. My liecence has been suppended because of my two (2) unpaided speeding tickets that i aquired over the summer. PLUS, i still have to pay the fines, and my insurance is gonna like....double. The inspection on my car is still expired. After added that all up my dad has decided to completely take my car away. But, I'm sure once my mom gets back from florida (and after she'll done yelling at me) she'll convince my dad to at least use the car for school, otherwise getting to school would be close to impossible. ALSO, i still haven't registered for the fall semester because every time i try to call or visit my advisor.....he isn't there. That really isn't good considering that registraion is today. I thought that things would get better once i found a job, and i mean working at shoprite as the produce boy is really easy, but for some reason everything is falling apart...........again. As, i was driving to class all i could think about was how much better it would be if a ginormous tractor-trailer just plowed into me, smearing bits of me down the road for a mile, while the shattered and burning bits of my van gracefully dance with the blaze. So anway, all in all, i have come to the conclution that being 18 utterly blows....so just kill yerself the day after, because from then on.......its all down hill. I turn 19 in like two (2) weeks, at least i hope i make it to 19. Hopefully, things will get better because if it doesn't......im gonna need some blankets cuz im moving to the city....as in being homeless living in some dark allyway waiting for some punk ass kids to come beat the shit out of me because they think its funny.
i hate myself.
i hate myself.