collect the moments one by one
okay, i'm 103 .
i weighed myself today after a heavy bingepurge.
even though i bingedpurged later that night again, and i swear i almost got caught ... i am sort of scared .
but i guess i've been keeping it pretty well hidden for the past almost two years . it's only been intense for about a year anyways .
faaaasting now, & i got diet cream soda :] :] :] ;]
yayayay, jamaica in six days ! except bad news ... we have cooks there to do our meals for us . i'm gonna get so fcking fat !! i don't know what i'm gonna do ... i can't just skip these meals , and i really dont want to have to purge after every meal. it'll just ruin my vacation.
oh, and my friend, we'll call her il, randomly said she was bulimic last night . she was drunk when she said this .
uhm, sorry, no one just blurts that out and then is fine after . she was fine, she was laughing and everything only minute after she said it !! i'm wondering whether it's true or not ...
hm .
anyways .
peace and love !!
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