stop being afraid of rejection
There is one thing about myself that i really don't like... i am afraid of others rejecting me... so afraid that I have become someone other than who I really am. I try to hide all parts of my life that I don't think others will approve of. It's miserable living like this. Recently (as in the past few days) I have decided that I'm sick of hiding my life. Why should I hide something I really like cause I think others will look down at me? So I have started to open up. Tonight a bunch of people came over... that was really hard for me... I am not one to have gatherings of people over. But it went really well. I hid nothing and they accepted me for who I am. I think that in the near future, there is going to be some changes with me. I'm gonna open up... be myself... not be shy, timid, and insecure anymore. I remember this bubbly person that was not scared of anything... that was me... where did i go? I think that in order for me to allow others to accept me, I need to accept myself for who I am.
okay. It's almost 4am... i gotta be up in 5 hours. I'm going to bed.
okay. It's almost 4am... i gotta be up in 5 hours. I'm going to bed.