confusinconfucious

[smallgirl_]

i had so much to blog
but i dunno what to pen dwn now.
i hate changes like what i have alws emphasized.
i try my best to take evrythg
but evrythg has a limit.
i feel v suffocated,
cannot rmb whn was the last time i cried.
i am no iron lady,
i do need a break
and tt is whn cryin helps.
cryin, singin and jommin are ways to relax,
to relieve your stress.
well, at least for me they help me forget my troubles.
let them evaporate
and lighten the burden.

i dwan to become you,
we are so similar tt smtimes,
i am afraid.
i'd rather get in touch with my masculine side.
i hate all these antics,
not whn i knoe them
and used them.
smtimes i just hate seein thru ppl,
readin them like a bk.
i am so afraid of bein read like a bk,
i understand how they shud feel
and i'd prolly have guilty ones panickin at this entry now.
quotin ms quah,
she said sth like this,
you'd only think that others are doin sth behind your back
cos you are guilty of it.
how nice and tt anecdote stays etched in my head.
loved it lots,
it's true,
mayb i doubt others too
cos smtimes those stuffs are what i'd do,
other times, cos i am afraid to trust.

i realised my close frens are ppl who share similarities with me,
in one way or another.
was talkin to seppy
and gosh, i sounded saddistic.
not tt she is
but just what we were talkin abt. hahaha!
*love her =)

watched the channel8 show with taypinghui.
it freakin killed me,
was tryin to hold back my tears.
cant rmb the exact lines
but twas sth abt bein willin to stay by her,
be her guardian angel,
suffer her pain,
just as long as she gets happiness.
|damn why does the last sentence sound grammtically wrong.
whatever.|

i just love bein alone [FULLSTOP].