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[smallaxe]

I've realized that I'm using this digital diary to write what im thinking at this very moment. Should I be doing this in my journal? Somehow this seems less permenant.

I found this in my english folder, I don't remember exactly when I wrote it, huh.

I can't even act or myself
any longer
every time you hit me
I seem to move closer

I come to you
not in search for a smile
but when my heart aches
and I need the noose pulled tighter

You go on and on
about yourself and your life
draining my willingness to try

I love to loathe
and yearn to cry
this is all subconciouse of course
for realization is acceptance
and I know life be better than this

If I could only stop
walk away from you
then the pain would subside
blue skies over due

But acting for myself
is a luxury no yet
given to those in love
with someone in love with themselves