stolen ENTIRELY from jess

[smallaggie]

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue

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[love_like_mine]

Finally I got fed up with her changing her Screen Names and fonts whenever I did. Copying me all the time got so old, so I told her to knock it off and she got all offensive like "I am NOT copying you." She was obviously in denial, that or it was an amazing coincidence! And I don't believe that many things are coincidental.

Well after that first arguement, I don't think we talked for a month. I felt bad for blowing things out of proportion (I sounded so immature, because it wasn't a big deal or anything but it just aggravated me so much), so I IMed her and apologized. We became friends, again.

Things continued. She'd copy me. She used to copy my favorite movies, what I wanted to do as a secret dream in life (which is to become an actress). Once when I was in my Sophomore Year of high school, I was an aspiring actress. I never took it too seriously until I went to my first audition where they were casting characters for a local television show. I auditioned, and got casted! I was chosen out of so many people, but my parents refused to drive me as far as it was (it was almost an hour drive) all the time, so that killed it for me. I knew I couldn't persue acting until I became older (So I may persue it again one of these days), but I still had a strong desire to become an actress. Well, sooner than I knew it, she had this addiction with wanting to be an actress! Out of nowhere she magically developed that lifelong dream! She began sending her photos to agencies and everything, blah blah. It was bad, and she always asked me how to go about going to auditions and crap. I told her, but I knew that she wasn't as passionate about acting as I was. So her dream of acting ended eventually... mine still has not.

The most recent occurence happened sometime between September of last year until January of this year when she discovered the wonder that is LiveJournal! She had her own style of writing at first, so it seemed. She still used words and phrases she stole from me that I used to use every day, but don't anymore. Then suddenly, her writing style slowly shifted and began to look just like mine! It was freakish. Very freakish. She began filtering her friends only entries so that I couldn't read the entries where she tried so hard to type and write and sound like me. She filtered them so I couldn't see them, while her other friends could and think that she is this amazingly creative, unique individual who thinks for herself and establishes her own ideas, and this and that.

I discovered that she was filtering entries because me and my cousin made a fake journal name and requested her to add us as a friend. She did, and we were able to see practically 10 or so entries that she'd filtered. I was wondering why she hadn't updated in a while! Because I couldn't read it! Nice.

So I got really pissed when I found out she was giving me no credit for all the ideas that were mine. As a hint to knock it off, I made a random post in my journal about how random people kept copying me, and tried to act like me. I was very indirect and unspecific. When the cloning kept occuring, I finally wrote a long post that went something like "TO ALL OF YOU MISSY COPY CATS, stop writing, talking, and acting like me. Stop copying my fonts, my journal, my AIM Sn's, blah blah etc." right? Well I was still being very indirect! And I made it sound like there was more than one person involved.

[love_like_mine]

So it was nice to see when she wrote this rant about me in her journal about how she thinks that I think I'm so creative, and I'm such a bitch and how I think she's copying me when she supposedly came up with everything first, like she was the ingenious mind behind it all. It's funny how she stated everything that she didn't copy from me, which turned out to be everything she did copy. It was also funny how she assumed that I was making that entry in reference to her, which made it obvious that she was fully aware of what she was doing.

And that was that. I felt bad because my friend's friend left her harassing comments on her journal and I did not tell him to! I didn't want to cause any drama, and it made matters worse because she thinks I put him up to it. But I didn't. Then she left a comment on my journal telling me that she never copied me, and she did consider me a friend, and this and that. Then my other friend replies and tells her off! I felt so bad! OMG. I didn't want to like STOP being friends with her, I just wanted her to find her own identity because truth be told, when she wasn't copying me, she was actually really awesome and she is really intelligent, too. And sweet. I just never understood why she wanted so badly to be like me. What did I ever have that she didn't?

Well now we haven't spoken in five months. She stopped updating her LJ and I was so worried that I scared her away from the internet, but no. The other day I found out she just has a Greatest Journal now. She still tries to write like I used to, but you know, now that I think about it, it was pretty flattering. It made me feel good. She made me feel admired, like somebody to look up to and it was a nice feeling. I really miss having her as a friend, she was my friend for the longest time and some good memories of my online experiences have involved being friends with her. I miss her! I can't believe I'm saying that, eventhough she did all that. What should I do?!

Sorry this was so much longer than I had anticipated! Holy cow. lol

[love_like_mine]

And stupid me, it's no longer anonymous!!! *dies* Oh well, cat's out of the bag.

[love_like_mine]

Oh yeah, and once when I went through this obsession with chihuahuas (almost a year ago), I ended up buying a chihuahua/dachshund who was black and brown and adorable. I was obsessed with getting a chihuahua for the longest time!

Well before that, this girl never liked chihuahuas. But one day she magically became OBSESSED with getting one and SHE ACTUALLY DID... Where did THAT come from.

[smallaggie]

oh missy, you are so wonderful. i have to love you for the silly unique sweetheart that you are. (i'm the same as for forgetting to make things anon.)

as for this girl, i would've been flattered at first but now it just sounds creepy. if i understood this correctly, she's left you alone recently. you need to think this through. which was better for you- the time she spent imitating you or the time she's spent leaving you alone?

hmmm i'm a type a personality so i make mental pros/cons lists all the time. if i were you, i'd figure out if i'm happier now without her or if i missed her enough to risk being copied again. if you contact her and she copies you again, then you shouldn't be upset about it.

personally, i don't think i would contact her if she had upset me so much the first time around. if you feel that she's worth getting in touch with from the look of her recent journal entries, then go for it.

good luck, and i hope this helped somewhat. i know it's confusing.

[love_like_mine]

lol, Aww thank you!

Well, it's not that I was unhappy when I was friends with her, I wasn't. I just found it irritating when she copied me. But I did like having her as a friend. I don't think I'd be as mad if she copied me again because she is OCD and bipolar, so I'm beginning to think now that that could be a reason to why she does that.

I just miss her! I'm weird. It was flattering at first, but got tiring. I don't know, I think I'll at least let her know I'm sorry that my friend's friend harassed her. :)

Thanks for the advice!