Oubliette
I'm just sending a message to someone who won't read it anyway....
It's turning into another one of THOSE weeks again... But that doesn't seem to matter to you... I know I should call too and that I shouldn't put all of this on you... But it sucks! And I want to hate you for it sooo bad!! But she was right and it's just unfair :'( and that doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I can't stop it... I try to be as honest as I can but yet my parents miss you and I can't tell them that even if I were better you still wouldn't be here because of all of this... I don't know what to do anymore... I've said I'm sorry a thousand times, and yea you say it back sometimes, but alot of times it's hard for me to believe you... And that hurts me... It hurts me that you may not be sorry but it almost hurts me more that I don't believe you... I don't know this is hopeless I guess so I think I'll stop here...
It's turning into another one of THOSE weeks again... But that doesn't seem to matter to you... I know I should call too and that I shouldn't put all of this on you... But it sucks! And I want to hate you for it sooo bad!! But she was right and it's just unfair :'( and that doesn't bother me as much as the fact that I can't stop it... I try to be as honest as I can but yet my parents miss you and I can't tell them that even if I were better you still wouldn't be here because of all of this... I don't know what to do anymore... I've said I'm sorry a thousand times, and yea you say it back sometimes, but alot of times it's hard for me to believe you... And that hurts me... It hurts me that you may not be sorry but it almost hurts me more that I don't believe you... I don't know this is hopeless I guess so I think I'll stop here...