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Meh... he knows how much I wanted him to come with me. I wanted his support. He never does it. He said he might this time. I knew he wouldn't; he never does. It makes me sad. I don't think he gets this. He has to not get it. Either that or he's too busy. That's probably it. I wish he would just tell me like it is. Things aren't going as well. My mind makes it worse.
It was a chance. I wouldn't feel so bad if he came. Now I feel worse. I guess it was kind of a test, but I think everything in life is a test.
I've stopped putting these entries on friends only and private because no one reads them anyhow. And at this point waht the hell? Our relationship isn't perfect. No one's is. It was so fucking close though. Why do I have to love him so much?
It was a chance. I wouldn't feel so bad if he came. Now I feel worse. I guess it was kind of a test, but I think everything in life is a test.
I've stopped putting these entries on friends only and private because no one reads them anyhow. And at this point waht the hell? Our relationship isn't perfect. No one's is. It was so fucking close though. Why do I have to love him so much?