Jun 19, 2007 01:49
So my sister and I went home on Sunday, and my dad was like "hey hey, call my phone and listen to my ringtone." I gave him a weird "whuuut?" look as I thought in a flash - I have the same phone as my dad...he wouldn't go and download a ringtone off the internet, would he?....WHAT new ringtone?"
As soon as I heard the ringtone, I knew it was classical music type....but that was it. It sounded familiar, but nothing major. "Find it and download it for me," my dad ordered. My sister, being the classical music connoisseur was quiet for a moment, then confidently identified it as part of Peer Gynt, by Grieg. My dad was like, "ah, yes...Grieg."
I was surprised...how did he know about Grieg? Well, Peer Gynt is actually a collection of about 20 or so songs, a couple which are actually recognizable (In the Hall of the Mountain King being one). So I was doing research at home, and finally pinpointed the ringtone to Anistra's Dance, and as I was downloading it, dad requested to download as many of the other songs as I could.
Ellen pointed to one and said "ooh! Solveig's Song, Solveig's Song!" After downloading that one, I listened to it. It's a sad sounding opera song, sung by a lady...and it was so familiar! I wondered aloud if it was from an opera? My sister said no. But why did it sound so familiar to me then?
Dad smiled cutely to the point his eyes were crinkling. "I used to sing this to you girls when you were little and needed help falling asleep."
My eyes widened, "...you can sing opera??" "No, no." "Then how did you sing to us? I want to hear it."
With that, he curved one arm in the air as if he were cradling a small kid, and started humming, slapping his knee gently with the other arm (it would've been slapping our butts). Immediately, I remembered! The cradling, the slapping motions, and most of all, his low hum of the song. Yes! That's why it was so familiar.
Instantly, I remembered Texas and the green carpet. Dad had more hair back then, and he was squatting in front of an old 70's TV, turning the huge dial that went from 2-13 (if I remember correctly). My grandma had made me dresses back then. I would grab the back hem of my dress, swing it above my head to make it look like a hood (exposing my underwear). Then I'd walk over to my dad and use my dress to give him a hood.
We reminisced a bit that day....
Today I told several co-workers, and they thought it was cute. But as I was going to the restroom, chuckling while humming the song, it suddenly occurred to me - my dad is pretty awesome...too bad he'll [never] be a grandfather to continue the awesomeness.
I became very sad. I'm tearing up as I write this. I know I'm being dramatic, and this is unnecessary...maybe this is hormones in preparation for next week. But I know at this point right now I'm not ready for kids, and I don't know if I ever will be. Well, I gotta find the right guy first, one that's funny and makes me laugh, and doesn't frighten me away, and doesn't feel awkward...And I'm really not understanding myself right now - why am I crying? why am I hurting?
But back to my dad, I do love him so much.
And this song is not helping me right now!!!