a week in
So, it's a week into the new year. This is suppose to be the time that I try to reinvent myself stopping my old annoying habits and become a better all round person. MAFIA
One of my old pals from Orlando called me last night. He was one of my best friends on the program second semester. It was so niec to hear from him. Before I knew it, it had been like two hours. Super exciting.
Well....the down part to him is that he used to live with my old "whatever". I had come sooooo far in my recoperation. I had been out with other guys. Hooked up with other guys. Totally went days weeks even without thinking about him. I haven't cried over him in LORD knows how long! "he's just not that into you"
Anyways, halfway through the conversation, my buddy says something about my ex saying "oh, sorry. i didn't mean to mention his name." To which, I told him "it's okay. I'm alright. You can mention his name. Don't be silly" OPEN MOUTH >>>>>>> INSERT FOOT
I say "Don't tell me details or anything, but I was going to ask you how he was doing...if he's happy."
My friend then tells me that he is not only still with that girl that he started seeing after we ended things....but they are (wait for it) LIVING TOGETHER!?!?!??!?!?!
I held it together and HONESTLY said that I was super happy for him, WHICH I AM! I really do hope the best for him. I don't want him to be miserable by any means. AFter I got off the phone, I started thinking....I knew him for three and a half years before I could even get him to admit we were "dating". We ended things in the beginning of April....and it was at least a couple of weeks before they started anything. HELLO!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to be with him. I am honestly super happy that it is over. Taking a step back has made me see the whole situation as absurd. My mom finally pointed out to me that the thing that upset me was that she was able to do much better at "a project" than I did. WOW
Could it be true? I have said for quite some time taht I always knew we wouldn't work out. I for some reason wanted to "help him" like I have so many other people in the past. And now that I know someone got him to actually commit.......am I bitter that the project I failed, she conquered? Weird
One of my old pals from Orlando called me last night. He was one of my best friends on the program second semester. It was so niec to hear from him. Before I knew it, it had been like two hours. Super exciting.
Well....the down part to him is that he used to live with my old "whatever". I had come sooooo far in my recoperation. I had been out with other guys. Hooked up with other guys. Totally went days weeks even without thinking about him. I haven't cried over him in LORD knows how long! "he's just not that into you"
Anyways, halfway through the conversation, my buddy says something about my ex saying "oh, sorry. i didn't mean to mention his name." To which, I told him "it's okay. I'm alright. You can mention his name. Don't be silly" OPEN MOUTH >>>>>>> INSERT FOOT
I say "Don't tell me details or anything, but I was going to ask you how he was doing...if he's happy."
My friend then tells me that he is not only still with that girl that he started seeing after we ended things....but they are (wait for it) LIVING TOGETHER!?!?!??!?!?!
I held it together and HONESTLY said that I was super happy for him, WHICH I AM! I really do hope the best for him. I don't want him to be miserable by any means. AFter I got off the phone, I started thinking....I knew him for three and a half years before I could even get him to admit we were "dating". We ended things in the beginning of April....and it was at least a couple of weeks before they started anything. HELLO!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to be with him. I am honestly super happy that it is over. Taking a step back has made me see the whole situation as absurd. My mom finally pointed out to me that the thing that upset me was that she was able to do much better at "a project" than I did. WOW
Could it be true? I have said for quite some time taht I always knew we wouldn't work out. I for some reason wanted to "help him" like I have so many other people in the past. And now that I know someone got him to actually commit.......am I bitter that the project I failed, she conquered? Weird