oh
i am so fucking angry right now. i feel like i haven't been this mad in a long time. i don't even know where it came from. it began as being stressed out over all the things i have to do for school, and then ryan called and i freaked out on him, and i don't feel like myself now. i'm shaking and i feel worthless. i feel like screaming or breaking something in half. i feel like throwing this fucking computer across the room. i feel like a bad person, i feel like i'm pointless and not good at anything, i feel like everything i do is a waste of time, i feel like i'm a complete failure, and i feel fucking beyond angry at everything.
this isn't me. this will all pass. but even when i'm not angry, i still sometimes feel like a failure who's not good at anything. i don't know if i can do this.