to count my tears... would be like standing in the rain...
i haven't been having a good week. i don't know what it is, but i just feel like i'm going to ruin everything... i don't know what to do.. i want things to be better, but i find myself......a little bit... LIKE MY MOM. i mean like, i find myself picking at everything (which is what my mom does). an argument after another and when it's over, i come back picking at what's said from the other and making objections, suggestions, justifications and more clarifications... i argue too much. i fight too much to win. i guess there's only ONE room for someone like ME. otherwise everything turns ugly. -_-;... i guess that'll work out fine if i do stick to still wanting to be a lawyer. hahah. well.. yeah, i really do think being a lawyer would be really fun along with hard work which wouldn't be all that great. anyways~
well, it sounds like i'm g e t t i n g a n o t h e r s u r g e r y. because since my curvature is a lot in my lower back, my surgeon said that in 4 months i have to go back and they're gonna take out two screws from my spine, which is one from each side, so that i can have more movement. how am i gonna go to school?? ima be in pain... i think i'll be needing a pillow for my back to lean on when im sitting. watch me bring one.. haha. oh, and the pain killers are gonna make me SO drowsy and if i don't lay down and fall asleep or something i'll end up with a huge headache. but as for right now, my back isn't too used to standing up or even sitting up for so long.
(sigh) i'm..... fkjdklajoiewjafkloiewjfgb ew8oifhrnjsabjks
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dude... tell me there is someone out there who knows the fucking difference between TELLING THE TRUTH and OPENING UP TO SOMEONE fucking bullshit.