and you know that it's a fool who plays it cool;
:| I'm a romantic.
I didn't realize it until just now. Like, JUST now. I was crying while watching a chick flick and I got all disgusted and had to leave the room.
I don't like it.
I got this horrible hopeful holly-like feeling, like romance was in my near future, like somehow I'd grow the balls to turn heads or someone would see me, i mean really see me, and suddenly decide that I was perfect.
And then the world slid back into focus and I remembered that I am flesh and blood, and that despite the fact that life sometimes seems like a storybook, it isn't, and these kinds of things will never happen to me.
And I realized that it is physically impossible for me to grow balls, physically (gross!) or mentally, in order to ask someone out. And since that can never happen, this happy bullshit won't happen, because at this rate I'm going to get more and more emo and annoying.
Instead of stealing all Holly's romanticism or kicking happiness to the curb, I'm going to steal a different prospect of Holly's: friendship. I mean, it seems to be working just fine for her so far, and since this random mall outing seemed to happen easily, friendship could be just fine.
Maybe I'll get over it. Wouldn't that be nice?
SHUT UP EMO SHARMIE YOU SUCK.
I didn't realize it until just now. Like, JUST now. I was crying while watching a chick flick and I got all disgusted and had to leave the room.
I don't like it.
I got this horrible hopeful holly-like feeling, like romance was in my near future, like somehow I'd grow the balls to turn heads or someone would see me, i mean really see me, and suddenly decide that I was perfect.
And then the world slid back into focus and I remembered that I am flesh and blood, and that despite the fact that life sometimes seems like a storybook, it isn't, and these kinds of things will never happen to me.
And I realized that it is physically impossible for me to grow balls, physically (gross!) or mentally, in order to ask someone out. And since that can never happen, this happy bullshit won't happen, because at this rate I'm going to get more and more emo and annoying.
Instead of stealing all Holly's romanticism or kicking happiness to the curb, I'm going to steal a different prospect of Holly's: friendship. I mean, it seems to be working just fine for her so far, and since this random mall outing seemed to happen easily, friendship could be just fine.
Maybe I'll get over it. Wouldn't that be nice?
SHUT UP EMO SHARMIE YOU SUCK.