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On a writing roll here, so this will be short.
I guess the most . . . meaningful thing . . . that happened to me today was I had one of my clients tell me that they considered me a gift in their life from God. I found that extremely flattering and gracious.
I'm not religious (I'm agnostic -- I think there are things that happen that can't be explained by science, but other than that . . . I dunno!), but I admit that there are times where I wish I could be. I mean, I know I could go to church and stuff -- and sometimes I do go to church -- but sometimes I wish I could feel the presence of God (let me just use the term 'God' for ease) like I see so many people of faith do. I don't believe that religion is inherently unintelligent or sycophantic; in fact, some of the most amazing concepts have been introduced and promoted by religious scholars. But I just don't feel . . . the spirit of God, or whatever. Like, it's not a feeling inside me. I have many times wondered what it would feel like to have a true religious experience, where one feels like God or a spirit is inside one's self. I have, at various times in my life, attempted to seek God, but I never felt it. When I was in high school, I was even in FCA, and I went to a Christian-based private school (not quite like Saved, but it's fair to say that being a conservative Christian at my high school was certainly not a social hindrance or problem). I just never felt it. Sometimes I wish I did. I appreciate faith, but faith as a blank canvas . . . is it too much to want a little more?
Thus concludes my existential crisis du jour.
Icon: Viktor and Hermione - Yule Ball ♥
I guess the most . . . meaningful thing . . . that happened to me today was I had one of my clients tell me that they considered me a gift in their life from God. I found that extremely flattering and gracious.
I'm not religious (I'm agnostic -- I think there are things that happen that can't be explained by science, but other than that . . . I dunno!), but I admit that there are times where I wish I could be. I mean, I know I could go to church and stuff -- and sometimes I do go to church -- but sometimes I wish I could feel the presence of God (let me just use the term 'God' for ease) like I see so many people of faith do. I don't believe that religion is inherently unintelligent or sycophantic; in fact, some of the most amazing concepts have been introduced and promoted by religious scholars. But I just don't feel . . . the spirit of God, or whatever. Like, it's not a feeling inside me. I have many times wondered what it would feel like to have a true religious experience, where one feels like God or a spirit is inside one's self. I have, at various times in my life, attempted to seek God, but I never felt it. When I was in high school, I was even in FCA, and I went to a Christian-based private school (not quite like Saved, but it's fair to say that being a conservative Christian at my high school was certainly not a social hindrance or problem). I just never felt it. Sometimes I wish I did. I appreciate faith, but faith as a blank canvas . . . is it too much to want a little more?
Thus concludes my existential crisis du jour.
Icon: Viktor and Hermione - Yule Ball ♥