i lied
when i said i wasnt sick, cuz i am. not terribly terribly so, mostly its this annoying cough and some congestion. but my mental state was much worse. i nearly had a nervous breakdown at work today, i just couldnt handle people.. so they let me go home, which was reallllly nice of them. i should have just called off, but i didnt want to leave them in the lurch.. but i did anyway. oh well, it needed to happen.
i'm fine, just stressed out about life and what i'm going to do after graduation,which is inching closer and closer every second. and i stillhave no plans. i will take the weekend and use it to get my act together, but its still hard to define my goals. and i'm tired of working at meijer onlyto have 25% of eachof my checks stolen from me through taxes and other CRAP.
did i mention i hate money? i mean i HATE it. its evil, people judge you based on how much money you have (or dont have) and of course you need money to live, to eat and whatnot. it SUCKS. and to have money, you have to work, often at a job you hate, cuz lets face it, who really works at their DREAM job? well maybe one day, but everyone has had a job they didnt like.
so i'm just sick of it and rather afraid that i'll never find my "DREAM" job cuz someone else will always be STEALING it like they STEAL everything else. someone who used to be my friend. ha. thats reallyfunny. damn i'm bitter.
oh but on a happy note, the friend that i mentioned that had told me off randomly- changed her mind and we are cool again. that was nice of her, and we didnt even have to fight about it. so at least something is decent for the moment.
AND the New Jersey Devils won a thrilling game 7 tonight against the tough Ottawa Senators to advance to the Stanley CUp Finals!!! Yay for NJ and yay for Marty Brodeur! :) watch our Ducks, you're playing with the BIG BOYS now.. and this also means 4-7 more hockeygames that i will actually care about this year, AND if (when) the Devils win, i will be right again in my prediction of the Cup winner. woohoo.
so there it is. my life is a mess right now and my mind is slightly unstable, but hopefully what i need is sleep and some time to sort things out and some TIME to work on my great PLAN for life. thats gonna be tomorrow night and sunday whenever i get a chance and monday. i want to start making phone calls and emails and mailings on TUESDAY! haha now i have a plan, that feels good.
i'm fine, just stressed out about life and what i'm going to do after graduation,which is inching closer and closer every second. and i stillhave no plans. i will take the weekend and use it to get my act together, but its still hard to define my goals. and i'm tired of working at meijer onlyto have 25% of eachof my checks stolen from me through taxes and other CRAP.
did i mention i hate money? i mean i HATE it. its evil, people judge you based on how much money you have (or dont have) and of course you need money to live, to eat and whatnot. it SUCKS. and to have money, you have to work, often at a job you hate, cuz lets face it, who really works at their DREAM job? well maybe one day, but everyone has had a job they didnt like.
so i'm just sick of it and rather afraid that i'll never find my "DREAM" job cuz someone else will always be STEALING it like they STEAL everything else. someone who used to be my friend. ha. thats reallyfunny. damn i'm bitter.
oh but on a happy note, the friend that i mentioned that had told me off randomly- changed her mind and we are cool again. that was nice of her, and we didnt even have to fight about it. so at least something is decent for the moment.
AND the New Jersey Devils won a thrilling game 7 tonight against the tough Ottawa Senators to advance to the Stanley CUp Finals!!! Yay for NJ and yay for Marty Brodeur! :) watch our Ducks, you're playing with the BIG BOYS now.. and this also means 4-7 more hockeygames that i will actually care about this year, AND if (when) the Devils win, i will be right again in my prediction of the Cup winner. woohoo.
so there it is. my life is a mess right now and my mind is slightly unstable, but hopefully what i need is sleep and some time to sort things out and some TIME to work on my great PLAN for life. thats gonna be tomorrow night and sunday whenever i get a chance and monday. i want to start making phone calls and emails and mailings on TUESDAY! haha now i have a plan, that feels good.