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[slyseduction69]

hey everyone, i havent updated in a while,darens at basic, weve been broken up for a while, im actualy doing better then i thought i would be, i made a pretty big mistake last saturday, i think it was ment to happen, but it still sucked, ya see,on saturday i mat up with a guy named damien at skate scean, who i met once but didnt realy know very well, and we skated together and then danced and he wanted to hang out on sonday, so i said ok.we hung out sunday, me him annie and his friends john, and cory, we went to the beach, and swam in like 40 degree water, it was kinda cold, anyway,damien asked me out, and so far i was having fun, so i went against what i usualy do, and said yes, and john asked annie out too, she also said yes. i was having fun and mooning, and barking at people, lol , like usual, and later damien told me, in a nice way, that he didnt realy like it, but he would try to get used to it, which was clue #1, if you dont like something now, you probably wont later, and its odd, because he acted the EXACT same way. i stayed at tristas sunday night, and they woke us up at like 9 in the morning, we went to damiens to meet peter, who we were trying to hook up with trista, him and brian showed up, and i could tell that she liked brian and NOT peter. lol so we headed to annies to jump, and we all wreastled around, i whooped brians ass, and everyone was getting mad at brian because i guess we were all flirting with him. john threw him around a little but didnt realy hurt him. then me n trista stayed at my house, he boys got us up nice and early, we hung out at my house all day, damien was kinda getting on my nerves, so i hung out with john most of the day, damien swam in the river, we went to the park, i was starting not to like damien right about now... me n trista stayed at annies. annie broke up with john... i wanted to break up with damien, but annie and trista wouldnt let me because then brian and peter wouldnt have a ride 2 see us. so they woke us up in the morning, gabe came over finaly, i liked seeing him, i findal broke up with damien. me, candi, and annie stayed at tristas. thursday morning, gabe, damien, trista, and candace went to brunswic to drop gabe off. annie and i went to peters, him brian and john were there, john and i watched a movie, i was realy starting to like john, but then damien got there and fliped out on john, which realy pissd me off, and john left which pissed me off even more, damien and i got in a realy big fight, he kept telling john that he was going to kill him if he talked to me. then we (the girls) left and went to my house, and hung out there for the night. john came over friday,even though damien said he couldnt, but he can kiss my ass, lol no one tells me what to do. it was just me him and trista. then britta, amanda and annie came over, damien was being a total ass. but friday was alot of fun, i was starting to like john *alot* we talked on the phone from like 9ish pm till like 3 am! it was great... saturday.. ummm.. what did we do sat?... john was at speedway, practicing, and trista and i went to the mall with britta, we met up with jade luke lance and eddie, britta left us, so jade brought us home and asked us to stay with her, so i went to tristas, we got ready for skating, annie picked us up and we all headed to damiens to get them, i went with damien, peter and *john*.. lol and everyone else went with annie, damien was ok skating at first, he finaly told me that i could go out with john if i wanted to, then he went and cried!! how immature huh? iv known the kid one week, thats it, and hes already that controling and obsesed... oh well... john asked me out, i said yes ofcorse, he and i played pool and skated a few times, damien still just cried, annie and i busted out some line dances :D lol we were hawt!! i danced with john, then we all headed out, trista n i went with andy, and john went with damien, which was a bad bad bad thing. right when i got to jades john called and was like " im sorry, but i have to break up with you" i was so upset, i just kept saying no, please dont, john, please? and i started crying... i realy like him. alot. i was very sad, and i knew it was all damiens doing.. thank god jade had alcohol.. but it sucks getting drunk when your depressed... i did anyway tho... lol all i know is i called him at like 12 ish, i knew i was mad at him but i couldnt remember why... and trista told me that he had dumped me, and that was why.. and i started crying again... i dont remember anything after that... but trista and jade said that i kissed trista at some point... lol sry tris.. didnt mean anything by it, i think... i was probably just feeling lonley... i guess damien stoped in the bangor high school parking lot and wanted john to get out so he could kick his ass... anyway, the next morning (sunday) me jade trista lance luke and eddie went out for breakfast... i realy didnt feel so good.. then jade droped us off at speedway, to watch john race, he did pretty good for his first time... damien was there... grrr.. i hate him so much... he called me "a little bitch", and a slut... :( i was sad... i was also sad, because john had dumped me, and he wouldnt come over to see me because damien wanted to hurt him, and everytime i went to see him, damien would follow me.. >< i was pissed.. but anyway, it started raining, so the race was cut short, john left with his cuz. so it was just annie and damiens cars left, damien was sitting in annies car talking to casey, and everytime i tried to sit in there he yelled, and everytime i went to get in his car to sit, he fliped out.. i hate him so much, so i had to stand in the rain for like an hour trying to find a ride home cus dam was saposed to take casey so annie would have room to take us, but he figured out that that would be helping me.. so he changed his mind... hes such an ass... after like an hour, john came back and got us, lol damien was pissed.. :D it was great, so i got to see john for a while.. yay... but trista was bitching cus she had to be home by 7, so we left and john stayed there... when i got home i had a not so nice talk with damien online, i'll trow it on here at some point.. he kept telling me that id have to visit john in the hospital once he was done with him, and shyt like that, so i talked to john when he got home and dam hadnt shown up yett.. and i guess he didnt.. which as a very good thing... umm.. monday i went back to school, such an easy day, i slept in study hall, then slept in the clinic, then i had weight room, and i naped off and on, and stared at the pics of *john* on my phone.. :D.. ummm.. 4th per was great, i had cooking.. and the 2 shitty ppl in my group werent there so it was just nicole and I, which is awsome! then britta got john from school and came and got me at like 2:20, john and i went to my house to hang out, just the *2* of us!!!! yay.. hes so hott!! lol we "watched" a movie.. lol no we didnt do anything bad, just kissed and shyt, but needless to say i have no clue what the movie was about...he left at like 5:30 ish i was sad.but he asked me out again, even though damien will prolly flip, but oh well.. i like him alot! annies pa isnt doing very well, so i sent out some positive energy for him and there family... i hope hes ok... then i went to the apt... ate dinner, talked on the phone with john for a little while, i realy realy like him!! lol i know ima dork.. but yea... i got up this morning (tuesday) and headed to tristas,i talked to john on the phone for a bit, just while he was on the bus... britta got us at 9:20 ish and we went to school... lol and the 1st thing that happens when i get there is a fire drill.. so i missed most of history! yay!.. then i kept buggin john all day, i kept calling and he kept texting, cus my phone wont text.. umm.. english was ok.. i slept a little, the we did armed drill in jrotc, my sqd is going to whoop ass!! lol.. umm.. i talked to john righ afted school, bruce brought me home... then i talked to john again, and *hopefully* he'll call and tell me that he can get the car and come and see me!! that would be awsome!! but yea.. just lisning to music and updating this fucker i started it the 25th, but todays the 26th cus i didnt have time to finish, so the dates wrong... but yea!
love y'all
~Nia