im very emotionly devestated right now
ok well before i went home from deneas house she told me that she doesnt like me anymore. and how she likes someone else the same kid shes liked for 3 years yes she likes him while we were still going out. we are still together but im really crushed.i dont know what to think hopefully she will still like me cause i really fucking love her like serious love and she tells me that i dont love her but i know i do but thats besides the point. i really love her and im gonna try my fucking god damned hardes tto keep this relationship together shes at her 5 hour coarse for driving right now at john jay .and i miss her sooooooo much and i have to think about this all night now without talking because i dont think that she will call me im hoping o god she will though cause she has no idea how much i love and care for her and how much i want to stay with her. hopefully we will stay together because if i lose her i will lose everything in my life every happy thought i ever owned. i will lose every happy thought because the only ones i really had is when i was with her. hopefully i will be able to make a change for this to work out. but i dont know if it will especially if she likes someone else. so much has happened to me this passed 2 weeks so many bad things hopefully it will turn around. i wish it does ive never cared for anyone ro anything as muc has i care about her the thing i care about the most is that she likes someone else when she said that i didnt know what to be mad sad furious i didnt know instead i just started crying very badly. even though she said she would never cheta on me with him or anyone it still bothered me . when i asked her if she would cheat on me with him she said she wouldnt because she said she wanted to be with me......but before she said that she studdered saying i love you instead of saying i want to be with you. i dont know if she did tha tbecause she really does love me and doesnt want to tell me because she was mad or whatever or because she is used to saying it i have so many thoughts going through my head right now .i dont know if she ever loved me... if all those times she said she loved me did she mean it.....all those times she said she wanted to be wit hme forever and wanted to marry me if she means it. deep down inside me i believe her with all of that i dont know if thats a good or bad thing i dont know well im gonna go because my eyes are starting to hurt so muc hfrom crying denea i love you so much please lets fix this please i really want to but im gonna need your help too it will be easier if you want to fix this also. i love you so much baby i really truely do i love you bye