Aug 26, 2004 18:20
so lately i've been a passenger on an emotional roller coaster. people have bothered me, people have been wonderful. i've gone down and up and a million times over again.
why do people do things they know are bad? i can understand doing something like hanging on to something in hopes it will get better, but why do something that just is plain bad?
i've been having a lot of trouble with myself lately... there's a thing or two that i wonder why i do sometimes, but in the end its because i just can't not do it. everyone has their ways to escape their feelings when times get hard, i talk to people or play video games (this one's been my way to avoid bad feelings for a long time) or i sleep because sometimes i'll have forgotten when i wake up. just running from things isn't very good, i know, but it's better than other things i could be doing.
optimism is good on you, but you've got to really be 100% with it, even though that's really hard.
best wishes.
-el marco