Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right
I don't know if I've ever mentioned this, but I hate New Years. It is by far my least favorite holiday. Way below Arbor Day and United Nations day. I don't have like a specific reason as to why; I just sort of hate it. I think it's because upon review, I see everything I didn't accomplish, everything I didn't do, and how far I haven't come. Failure is not something I handle well, and when the New Year comes that is all I see…failure.
Not that 2006 was a terribly bad year! It wasn't…bad. Certainly not the worst year ever. But it wasn't the rising success I was shooting for.
So the question then becomes what I can do to make 2007 better? Hmmm? Something new and different! I started a book last year, and I think this year I would like to focus on that more…make it more of a priority. I don't really know HOW to write a book though, so I'm just kind of stumbling through it. I know how I want it to end, but getting there is harder then I thought it would be.
I also want to MOVE. Badly. Like seriously it's all I can think about when I'm home is how much I want to not live in that house anymore. As much as I've made it mine, it's still the house I bought with my ex-husband. It's too far from where everything else in my life is, and well, the landlords are JERKS! So, anyone who wants to come help me get the dang thing ready to sell let me know!! PLEASE!!
School school school. I really need to do something about that. Like finish. It's not clicking for me anymore. I just can't seem to make it a priority. There are too many complications, who will watch my kid, where will I get the money for books, will I ever get a good enough job with this to justify the heinous amounts of student loans I know have to pay back…and so on.
And then there's my personal life. And like everything else in my life, it's not what I want it to be, and I've no one to blame but myself. Wow, I can't even bring myself to type about it, that's pathetic!
So anyway, I guess the important thing is to focus on the good…my daughter is beautiful, smart, happy and healthy. My dad is healthy and funny and joined a bowling league. All in all life is pretty good, and hey it can always be worse!!
So here's hoping for a bright and shiny 2007. I wish you all the very best year yet! That you all find love and happiness and peace. And for me, I just wish that no one close to me dies this year. That, and that a diet where you only eat ice cream and chocolate cake and you lose like 10lbs a week is discovered.
That would rock.
Will the REAL Claudia please stand up?
Not that 2006 was a terribly bad year! It wasn't…bad. Certainly not the worst year ever. But it wasn't the rising success I was shooting for.
So the question then becomes what I can do to make 2007 better? Hmmm? Something new and different! I started a book last year, and I think this year I would like to focus on that more…make it more of a priority. I don't really know HOW to write a book though, so I'm just kind of stumbling through it. I know how I want it to end, but getting there is harder then I thought it would be.
I also want to MOVE. Badly. Like seriously it's all I can think about when I'm home is how much I want to not live in that house anymore. As much as I've made it mine, it's still the house I bought with my ex-husband. It's too far from where everything else in my life is, and well, the landlords are JERKS! So, anyone who wants to come help me get the dang thing ready to sell let me know!! PLEASE!!
School school school. I really need to do something about that. Like finish. It's not clicking for me anymore. I just can't seem to make it a priority. There are too many complications, who will watch my kid, where will I get the money for books, will I ever get a good enough job with this to justify the heinous amounts of student loans I know have to pay back…and so on.
And then there's my personal life. And like everything else in my life, it's not what I want it to be, and I've no one to blame but myself. Wow, I can't even bring myself to type about it, that's pathetic!
So anyway, I guess the important thing is to focus on the good…my daughter is beautiful, smart, happy and healthy. My dad is healthy and funny and joined a bowling league. All in all life is pretty good, and hey it can always be worse!!
So here's hoping for a bright and shiny 2007. I wish you all the very best year yet! That you all find love and happiness and peace. And for me, I just wish that no one close to me dies this year. That, and that a diet where you only eat ice cream and chocolate cake and you lose like 10lbs a week is discovered.
That would rock.
Will the REAL Claudia please stand up?