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i had a very weird dream last night. i had a very detailed recollection of it when i woke up this morning, but since i went and ran errands with mom, and i've been packing to go back to school, i dont really have as good of a memory of it. heres the jist of it though.
i was in my old neighborhood, charlestown lakes south, in va beach and i was on a road called daniel maloney. kind of a sketchy road, but i have a very good friend who lives down that road, his name is eric, and we'll get to him later. anyways...i'm backed into this small driveway at this small house (which isnt saying much cause all of them are small houses with small driveways). its dark...and there are a bunch of people across the street at a party, and at the house i'm parked at there are a bunch of people i've known for a very long time standing outside just chillin. the ironic thing about all these people is that they are all guys, and guys that have been very close to me one way or another, relationship-wise or very close friendship-wise, from va beach and here in md. the faces i recall the most are viv (md), ryan n.(va beach), my ex matt (va beach but he now lives in nj), kyle (md), iggy (md), and a couple of others i cant quite remember right now. anyways so we're all hanging out and all of a sudden matt and viv start either beating up my car or taking it apart. kyle and ryan keep going into my car and taking things out and messing with it or just throwing it into the yard. i keep concentrating on matt and viv though. like i can vividly remember matt pulling my exhaust pipe out from under the car...weird thing was is he pulled it from the front drivers side of the car, just by the door, and if you know ANYTHING about cars, this would be damn near impossible, but its a dream and weird things happen in dreams. and i'm yelling at matt, and he tosses the exhaust pipe at me and i catch it, getting grease and god knows what else on me, and i'm trying to control all these guys from destroying my car, and anything in my car. i remember seeing iggy come over from the party across the street and join in, but i walked up to him with determination and started swinging at him, he backed off and just watched. eventually it was either matt or viv in the passenger seat of my car fuckin with my stereo and my dashboard and i hop in my car and like turn myself and i kick him out (literally) and i also vaguely remember that when i went to chase someone away from my car, i didnt want to leave my car, like if i was near it, people wouldnt continue to destroy it. finally they calm down, but ryan is still going through the stuff in my car. and i call up eric cause i notice i'm only a few houses down from where he lives. he's home and tells me to come over, i hop in my car, its morning already, and even though he lived literally like 3 houses down which is a very minimal walking distance in this neighborhood, i felt compelled to drive. so i hop in my car and start it up, thinking its gonna be too beat up to drive. it starts fine and even sounds like the exhaust was never taken off. matt, iggy, ryan, and viv jump into my car to come with me. i drive down another road, turn around,...the whole time i'm yelling at the guys in my car telling them that they're gonna fix my fucking car... anyways i go down another street cause apparently i didnt know which house his was unless i was driving from the other direction (despite the big purple truck he always has in the driveway). we get there...i havent seen eric in ages so i give him a great big hug. me and the guys walked into the house and i explain to eric what was happening with the guys and them beating the hell out of my car and whatnot...and i start threatening the guys...and i wake up.
ok so i remembered more than i thought, but there was still more to it. it was a very long, very vivid dream. and the thing that weirds me out about this dream is that these are guys that i at one time or another put a lot of trust into. like ryan for example...has NEVER given me a reason not to trust him. very loyal friend. known him for a long long time. matt i trusted at one time, but obviously due to recent events that trust is gone. iggy is the same way, except i put a hell of a lot more trust into iggy than i do to normal friends. i put the the trust into him that i would put into gina. look what happened with that. kyle is the same way as ryan, very loyal friend, i think he's only given me a minor reason or two not to trust him. viv, good friend, i trust him, but he wouldnt be the first person i would go to for talking about things. it is very very weird. dont know what to make of it.
anyways...back to finishing packing so i can get to school at a decent time.
i was in my old neighborhood, charlestown lakes south, in va beach and i was on a road called daniel maloney. kind of a sketchy road, but i have a very good friend who lives down that road, his name is eric, and we'll get to him later. anyways...i'm backed into this small driveway at this small house (which isnt saying much cause all of them are small houses with small driveways). its dark...and there are a bunch of people across the street at a party, and at the house i'm parked at there are a bunch of people i've known for a very long time standing outside just chillin. the ironic thing about all these people is that they are all guys, and guys that have been very close to me one way or another, relationship-wise or very close friendship-wise, from va beach and here in md. the faces i recall the most are viv (md), ryan n.(va beach), my ex matt (va beach but he now lives in nj), kyle (md), iggy (md), and a couple of others i cant quite remember right now. anyways so we're all hanging out and all of a sudden matt and viv start either beating up my car or taking it apart. kyle and ryan keep going into my car and taking things out and messing with it or just throwing it into the yard. i keep concentrating on matt and viv though. like i can vividly remember matt pulling my exhaust pipe out from under the car...weird thing was is he pulled it from the front drivers side of the car, just by the door, and if you know ANYTHING about cars, this would be damn near impossible, but its a dream and weird things happen in dreams. and i'm yelling at matt, and he tosses the exhaust pipe at me and i catch it, getting grease and god knows what else on me, and i'm trying to control all these guys from destroying my car, and anything in my car. i remember seeing iggy come over from the party across the street and join in, but i walked up to him with determination and started swinging at him, he backed off and just watched. eventually it was either matt or viv in the passenger seat of my car fuckin with my stereo and my dashboard and i hop in my car and like turn myself and i kick him out (literally) and i also vaguely remember that when i went to chase someone away from my car, i didnt want to leave my car, like if i was near it, people wouldnt continue to destroy it. finally they calm down, but ryan is still going through the stuff in my car. and i call up eric cause i notice i'm only a few houses down from where he lives. he's home and tells me to come over, i hop in my car, its morning already, and even though he lived literally like 3 houses down which is a very minimal walking distance in this neighborhood, i felt compelled to drive. so i hop in my car and start it up, thinking its gonna be too beat up to drive. it starts fine and even sounds like the exhaust was never taken off. matt, iggy, ryan, and viv jump into my car to come with me. i drive down another road, turn around,...the whole time i'm yelling at the guys in my car telling them that they're gonna fix my fucking car... anyways i go down another street cause apparently i didnt know which house his was unless i was driving from the other direction (despite the big purple truck he always has in the driveway). we get there...i havent seen eric in ages so i give him a great big hug. me and the guys walked into the house and i explain to eric what was happening with the guys and them beating the hell out of my car and whatnot...and i start threatening the guys...and i wake up.
ok so i remembered more than i thought, but there was still more to it. it was a very long, very vivid dream. and the thing that weirds me out about this dream is that these are guys that i at one time or another put a lot of trust into. like ryan for example...has NEVER given me a reason not to trust him. very loyal friend. known him for a long long time. matt i trusted at one time, but obviously due to recent events that trust is gone. iggy is the same way, except i put a hell of a lot more trust into iggy than i do to normal friends. i put the the trust into him that i would put into gina. look what happened with that. kyle is the same way as ryan, very loyal friend, i think he's only given me a minor reason or two not to trust him. viv, good friend, i trust him, but he wouldnt be the first person i would go to for talking about things. it is very very weird. dont know what to make of it.
anyways...back to finishing packing so i can get to school at a decent time.