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My body hates me and has the worst timing ever. I really need ALL of my energy right now and of course, again, I won't have it. Fuck it all I feel ill. Guys remember when we were happy or at least less unhappy with eachother? I'm grumpy, that's a rhetorical question, we all have enough to do with midterms without adding on pondering questions like that. It's just one of the things I think about when I'm walking back to my apartment sometimes.
That's not fair of me to just throw that question out. There are sometimes when I am really happy, eventhough the source of my happiness is a controversial one. If I had tried to go out and go on all these dates (igoring what I really wanted) or just not date still, I know I'd be more unhappy more often. Of course, once you pick one door you never really know what's behind the other but right now I'm not really wondering. I hate that about life, the whole not knowing thing.
That's not fair of me to just throw that question out. There are sometimes when I am really happy, eventhough the source of my happiness is a controversial one. If I had tried to go out and go on all these dates (igoring what I really wanted) or just not date still, I know I'd be more unhappy more often. Of course, once you pick one door you never really know what's behind the other but right now I'm not really wondering. I hate that about life, the whole not knowing thing.