it's a mad world...
Ok, so what are these journals really all about? Telling about your day or being cheerful, or bitching about life to no end? Well, despite what they're really for, im bitching....so...watch out.
So last night while talking to my mom, I found out exactly what I didn't want to hear. Kevin and mom are most likely breaking up...soon. I cannot even describe to you how much this hurts me...they were so happy. Everything in my life was perfect...a rare thing. We were gonna be a happy famiy, get a house and I was finally gonna have a dad. The one thing in my life that i would do anything to have. But as I've learned, everything is not always as it seems. So here I go again dealing with a loss...a loss of someone that im attatched to and I actually liked. As I have found out...I was more sad about this than when ace and my mom got divorced. Im mad sad frusterated and confused. But I guess it all has to go on...but for now...this sucks...
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
So last night while talking to my mom, I found out exactly what I didn't want to hear. Kevin and mom are most likely breaking up...soon. I cannot even describe to you how much this hurts me...they were so happy. Everything in my life was perfect...a rare thing. We were gonna be a happy famiy, get a house and I was finally gonna have a dad. The one thing in my life that i would do anything to have. But as I've learned, everything is not always as it seems. So here I go again dealing with a loss...a loss of someone that im attatched to and I actually liked. As I have found out...I was more sad about this than when ace and my mom got divorced. Im mad sad frusterated and confused. But I guess it all has to go on...but for now...this sucks...
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone