terrifying love
i was just thinking of how much i was in love with mark. then i thought, how could i ever love anyone more than i did him? i thought to myself, maybe you just end up loving that new person even more. I started to get scared because loving someone more than you ever felt before in your life has to be one of the scariest and most overwhelming feelings ever. it almost makes me not want to have that feeling ever again, but it can't be that way. still, its terrifying. you hardly know what to do when you're in love and you get so disallusioned. what the hell would i do if i ever was again. i'd feel just as lost as i do without it, actually even more so. i don't know how i'm going to get to sleep tonight after that thought. i'm actually scared by it. ha. i'll just keep drawing and watch adult swim. my oh my.