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I've felt terribly disconnected from many of the friends I've visited on this trip. I suppose in my past life (or, life before the west coast), I was still learning how to socialize and was naturally attracted to those who had similar issues of isolatin and ennui. I suppose I was also very disconnected from the earth, natural beauty, the divine, expressions of gratitude, art as religion, etc. My personal evolution has certainly been a cleansing journey, but my visits with those people of my past stung a little. I feel like some of my closest friends have remained stagnant, not developing their talents because they're too busy drinking in bars and watching tv. It has made me think carefully about how I spend my time and why I socialize with people and in what context I wish to in the future, in order to manifest a life of positive energy.

I spent the weekend at Apogaea, Denver's regional Burning Man festival. I had a religious party experience; spun fire in a hailstorm, partied through the weather and the snow, levitated my wand, missed my tribe back in Seattle, and contemplated my relationship with drugs and festies. Life is certainly beautiful in the alternate universe, but I value balance at this point, and I am ready to go home and take on the challenge of that pesky lover called the real world. I've been on 'summer break' since January, after all.

Also, I'm in (functional) love and am flirting with the idea of moving to Wisconsin.