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Now I feel bad that I have been thinking about her only in relation to me, instead of her on her own doing her thing, but like I can only reminisce on what she shared with me? Am I centering myself? I mean... I can't just become omniscient.
I can't tell you who Kate was, because she was a lot of things with stuff I never experienced or was a part of. She may have regaled me with exploits or sobbed about disasters or fumed in futile anger-
But I can say she was wildly imaginative, mischievous, concerned about injustice, unceasingly loving to others and rarely ever to herself. She and I met through the Amy Winehouse community on LJ and then found out we both loved this podcast "Too Beautiful To Live" and "The Dollop" then she introduced me to "The Daily Zeitgeist" which was our daily touchstone. I should have fucking known, she got behind. But you want to respect someone's space, you know?
I can only say who she was to me and she was one of my absolute closest friends, especially in the darkness that we had in common.
Sometimes I got tired of her because I didn't know how to help her and I am struggling myself. I wish we had talked more on the phone, she'd get anxiety about it but then when we did she was like "oh of course this is easy!" and then we would have to start at 1 again. I just wish I had called her more, I mean she never picked up, but sometimes she would.
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I can't tell you who Kate was, because she was a lot of things with stuff I never experienced or was a part of. She may have regaled me with exploits or sobbed about disasters or fumed in futile anger-
But I can say she was wildly imaginative, mischievous, concerned about injustice, unceasingly loving to others and rarely ever to herself. She and I met through the Amy Winehouse community on LJ and then found out we both loved this podcast "Too Beautiful To Live" and "The Dollop" then she introduced me to "The Daily Zeitgeist" which was our daily touchstone. I should have fucking known, she got behind. But you want to respect someone's space, you know?
I can only say who she was to me and she was one of my absolute closest friends, especially in the darkness that we had in common.
Sometimes I got tired of her because I didn't know how to help her and I am struggling myself. I wish we had talked more on the phone, she'd get anxiety about it but then when we did she was like "oh of course this is easy!" and then we would have to start at 1 again. I just wish I had called her more, I mean she never picked up, but sometimes she would.
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