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I broke up with Marc today.
Happy Birthday to him...
p.s.- he cried.
I was capable of making a grown man cry. It doesn't make me feel good, lemme tell you.
I almost cried myself.
I'm still trying to think of a reason why I ended it besides the fact that I didn't really like him anymore. But I guess that's enough of a reason for now...
He asked me if there was another guy or something and he almost yelled at me as if he just assumed I was leaving for someone else. But there isn't anyone else, no one who seems to be worth breaking up with him for, at least. But Marc was always the jealous type. At least that's over with.
So why do I still feel so badly about this?
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
LOL I need my cousins. Or my bitch. Or some raggedies even.
It just sucks cuz here I am again, single and alone and I'm not dependent on a guy for happiness because I have my friends for that. But I just will really miss that intimacy you have with a boyfriend, the phonecalls just to say goodnight and "i miss you" and the hugs... ooommmggg the hugs are the best. not even the kisses, though those are good too. i love hugs. hugs standing up. hugs lying down. just hugs in general. why can't i just marry a hug? if a hug could come in the form of a man, i'd jump him and rape him in 2.4 seconds. for real for real.
Happy Birthday to him...
p.s.- he cried.
I was capable of making a grown man cry. It doesn't make me feel good, lemme tell you.
I almost cried myself.
I'm still trying to think of a reason why I ended it besides the fact that I didn't really like him anymore. But I guess that's enough of a reason for now...
He asked me if there was another guy or something and he almost yelled at me as if he just assumed I was leaving for someone else. But there isn't anyone else, no one who seems to be worth breaking up with him for, at least. But Marc was always the jealous type. At least that's over with.
So why do I still feel so badly about this?
BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
LOL I need my cousins. Or my bitch. Or some raggedies even.
It just sucks cuz here I am again, single and alone and I'm not dependent on a guy for happiness because I have my friends for that. But I just will really miss that intimacy you have with a boyfriend, the phonecalls just to say goodnight and "i miss you" and the hugs... ooommmggg the hugs are the best. not even the kisses, though those are good too. i love hugs. hugs standing up. hugs lying down. just hugs in general. why can't i just marry a hug? if a hug could come in the form of a man, i'd jump him and rape him in 2.4 seconds. for real for real.