Holy Junk
It's almost over! My undergrad years, are just about done... just have to get through a term paper, a presentation, a listening test, a review session, three in class finals, and a take home final. Really can't wait for finals week... less stuff to do, but then I have to start packing. Buh.
I'm beginning to have a serious case of the "what if's." I'm not going to go and do anything stupid, but just a lot of thinking of what if something went this way, or what if I had waited a little longer, or what could have been done differently. It's just irritating. First off, the decision that once seemed like a good idea can turn out to be a stupid one... or what you thought might be the right answer, and still think it is, but you're still not sure if it is. Secondly, free will sucks sometimes... it'd be easier if life plans were already laid out and all you had to do was follow the out-line. At times like these I wish I had my sister. I guess I'm just worried about a once good friend who has practically stopped talking to me...I don't know if recent events have made them hurt, or if they're trying to move on without resolving things. Just more what if's.
Something on the weird end... lately I've been seeing blotches of color...green, purple, red, yellow, sometimes blue. And hearing voices as if they were in the distant back ground...I think it's time for a vacation. Either that, or it's too late for vacation and I've already gone looney. I think I'll be alright as long as my stuffed animals don't start talking to me.
I'm beginning to have a serious case of the "what if's." I'm not going to go and do anything stupid, but just a lot of thinking of what if something went this way, or what if I had waited a little longer, or what could have been done differently. It's just irritating. First off, the decision that once seemed like a good idea can turn out to be a stupid one... or what you thought might be the right answer, and still think it is, but you're still not sure if it is. Secondly, free will sucks sometimes... it'd be easier if life plans were already laid out and all you had to do was follow the out-line. At times like these I wish I had my sister. I guess I'm just worried about a once good friend who has practically stopped talking to me...I don't know if recent events have made them hurt, or if they're trying to move on without resolving things. Just more what if's.
Something on the weird end... lately I've been seeing blotches of color...green, purple, red, yellow, sometimes blue. And hearing voices as if they were in the distant back ground...I think it's time for a vacation. Either that, or it's too late for vacation and I've already gone looney. I think I'll be alright as long as my stuffed animals don't start talking to me.