i dont think i can win

[sltwtrchicka]

Ever feel like you cant win...
ya i deffinately cant
yesterday.. ask early in the morning..
"hey you wanna hang out tonight around 4 or 5"
"ya... ill prolly hang with david for a little after school"
"thats cool... ill call you around five"
-i already new i was gonna be blown off-
around five i call....
"hey whats up..."
"blah blah.. something with alex. ill give you a call in a little when im done"
-sounded happy... like it might actually happen.....
9 o clock rolls around and no phone call....
-i get impatient....
i call.. guess what happens...rejected phone call...
now who didnt see that coming...
guess what.... no call back...

now im sitting at his house while he sleeps trying soooo hard not to cry.. cuz i just invite myself over
otherwise i would never see him

debating whether i should bring it up...
if i bring it up.. i risk annoying him and ruining shit.. and making it worse.
if i dont... then nothing changes and this will happen almost every day..
making me feel like shit...
there is no winning..
im ready to give up