At a loss for words
Well its been a long while since i have written on here and let things out. So i am back to express my thoughts and feelings on this little sanctuary we call live journal. So today i decided to write andres and see how he was doing and stuff so here goes what i wrote him:
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Just read this pls... dont know if u have read the other messages.....
Andres,
As i sit and reflect on what has transpired over the last year i cant help but be sadened and angry at the same time. But there is not much i can do about what has happened in the past. All i can ask is for a second chance, a chance to have that love that we had once had and that i still have for you. I truly deeply care about you but have chosen to pull away since that seemed like what you wanted done. I consently think about you and hope that you are doing well. It sadens me to know that you are not doing well in school and that you have to go school even longer now, but hey thats all you. Pls know that i am here for anything that you need.
I truly miss the times that we all spent together and the talks we use to have. But now i say the ball is in your court. ITs all up to you. You are the one who needs to make this decision.
Please respond to this message letting me know that you read it or just tell me to stop waisting my time. Which i hope it would not be the latter. Any ways i will stop and leave u with a hug just like old times ...
I truly miss u and do hope that u are ok .....
Fondly
Steve
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Now a little history on this guy, this guy was one of the kids my former good friend Gabe and I took under our wings in a mentorship type fasion. I was laying on my bed last nite and he came to my mind, i just wanted to see how he was doing and how things have been going.
Well i guess i should have just given up while i was ahead and now i really know how he feels.
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His reponse to me :
i don't want to harsh but seriously leave me be plz
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lets just say i feel that i have been stabed in the heart and am really dispointed. I guess my ship has sailed long ago and should just move on from there. ,,,,
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Just read this pls... dont know if u have read the other messages.....
Andres,
As i sit and reflect on what has transpired over the last year i cant help but be sadened and angry at the same time. But there is not much i can do about what has happened in the past. All i can ask is for a second chance, a chance to have that love that we had once had and that i still have for you. I truly deeply care about you but have chosen to pull away since that seemed like what you wanted done. I consently think about you and hope that you are doing well. It sadens me to know that you are not doing well in school and that you have to go school even longer now, but hey thats all you. Pls know that i am here for anything that you need.
I truly miss the times that we all spent together and the talks we use to have. But now i say the ball is in your court. ITs all up to you. You are the one who needs to make this decision.
Please respond to this message letting me know that you read it or just tell me to stop waisting my time. Which i hope it would not be the latter. Any ways i will stop and leave u with a hug just like old times ...
I truly miss u and do hope that u are ok .....
Fondly
Steve
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Now a little history on this guy, this guy was one of the kids my former good friend Gabe and I took under our wings in a mentorship type fasion. I was laying on my bed last nite and he came to my mind, i just wanted to see how he was doing and how things have been going.
Well i guess i should have just given up while i was ahead and now i really know how he feels.
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His reponse to me :
i don't want to harsh but seriously leave me be plz
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lets just say i feel that i have been stabed in the heart and am really dispointed. I guess my ship has sailed long ago and should just move on from there. ,,,,