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Jess showed me a video the other day. The topic was "whether we prefer someone to love us or to love someone". So the speaker was talking how she was treated nicely n kindly and everything she wished for from 4 guys, then she chose a guy who love her so much and shower her with passion n gifts, everything to her. They decided to get married and prepared everything. One day she received an envelop with a ring. It was from her husband-to-be. He said in the letters "do you know what books i read? Do you know what food i like? You only like me as the person who loves you". The video is very long so at the end the speaker realise and finally she found someone she loved and the person who loves her too.
I admit i fall in to the "prefer someone to love me" category. My first bf, he courted me first and yeah we fall in love and lasted 2 years. I was determined to marry him but my family didnt like it. What happened? I start thinking to myself again n again. Listen to my frens experienced and finally decided to break up with him. He was a nice guy and i felt guilty breaking his heart. I didnt regret it and vow not to turn back.
Since then i closed my heart tight enuff, no guys will have my eyes on him. Those sweet words or even few flirt lines totally turn me off n flight. I became easily judging guys and kept a distance. For those empty years i long for a hug, long for someone who can be there and having a shoulder to cry on. I fall for depression before i knew and wasnt aware. Day by day i tried very hard to be strong to myself n love myself more than anything. That's what kept me going.
Now i can proudly say i understand that feeling of loving someone. I dont care how he sees me i just want to tell him my deepest feeling. Yes i was afraid of confessing and we might end up not being friend but i was more afraid that i could not convey this overflowing love i have for him. Some girls like to be told "i love you" and they will make a fuss asking "do you love me?". But to me i want to be that person who tell him "i love you" everymorning and everynight. Doesnt matter if he replied or not.
This is just a begining, it was always sweet. But im sure we still have many tough challange to go thru and many ordeals but i want to believe in him, be his strongest ally and always be there for him. Like how Nino once give advice "a person who is loved by the one they love is the most attractive". I will be that only person who loves you for who you are, i thanked your past for who you are now. And i hope to be your present and future from now on.
I admit i fall in to the "prefer someone to love me" category. My first bf, he courted me first and yeah we fall in love and lasted 2 years. I was determined to marry him but my family didnt like it. What happened? I start thinking to myself again n again. Listen to my frens experienced and finally decided to break up with him. He was a nice guy and i felt guilty breaking his heart. I didnt regret it and vow not to turn back.
Since then i closed my heart tight enuff, no guys will have my eyes on him. Those sweet words or even few flirt lines totally turn me off n flight. I became easily judging guys and kept a distance. For those empty years i long for a hug, long for someone who can be there and having a shoulder to cry on. I fall for depression before i knew and wasnt aware. Day by day i tried very hard to be strong to myself n love myself more than anything. That's what kept me going.
Now i can proudly say i understand that feeling of loving someone. I dont care how he sees me i just want to tell him my deepest feeling. Yes i was afraid of confessing and we might end up not being friend but i was more afraid that i could not convey this overflowing love i have for him. Some girls like to be told "i love you" and they will make a fuss asking "do you love me?". But to me i want to be that person who tell him "i love you" everymorning and everynight. Doesnt matter if he replied or not.
This is just a begining, it was always sweet. But im sure we still have many tough challange to go thru and many ordeals but i want to believe in him, be his strongest ally and always be there for him. Like how Nino once give advice "a person who is loved by the one they love is the most attractive". I will be that only person who loves you for who you are, i thanked your past for who you are now. And i hope to be your present and future from now on.