annnd my brother makes me hate people in general..

[slsdancermarla]

so, i know why i don't get along with my brother at all. he finds joy in reminding me that he had fucking everything that i got gypped out of. yes. here i go again. no fucking bat mitzvah, no fucking sweet sixteen and soon to be no fucking car. fyi my dad bought my brother a 2,000 dollar laptop at age 6. my dad FINALLY bought me a 800 dollar laptop (less than half the value of my brother's current one which he ALSO bought him) at age 16. my brother's bar mitzvah was 20,000 dollars. i am still a fucking child in my religion for 0 dollars. my brother had a car party, an 18th party and vacation, etc totalling around 10,000 dollars. my mother had to throw me a a sweet 16 party (at her expense), because my father broke his 20,000 dollar sweet sixteen party promise. why? because he spent it all on taking SOMEONE on cruises all year. i'm sorry, but i will NOT be fucked over on my car. i will throw the biggest spoiled bitch fucking fit that the world has ever seen. why? because i know i can have it and i want it. i know it's financially possible to get my fucking -06 black mustang GT with everything i've picked out annnnnd pay for insurance and gas. i know how i live and how i used to live. we're talking 300 dollars to my mom and 300 to me every single fucking day until i hit 10 and the fucking world fell apart. you know what? fuck this. i'm getting my car, or i'll drop my grades and my dad'll have to pay for college.. well, or i'll set my heart on some crazy expensive private and out-of-state school.. which i may do anyways, but i just won't apply for a scholarship. ok. i'm going to end this now.

life is good, life is great, i want my beautiful v8.