The One With Ugh
It seems like everyone is really stressed out... for some reason all that is plaguing me is a stain on a shirt I just bought and a quiz I don't feel like studying for. Otherwise, life is good.
But I know I've also been pushing away my problems. Recently I hung out with Dan and we talked (or rather, I mostly listened) and it made me realize how truly lonely I have become. I know a lot of people - almost everywhere I go I find someone I know. But they're just acquaintances or 'close' friends I don't hang out with anymore or rarely. I do have friends I talk to on a regular basis but even then we rarely see each other. So when I'm bored and have nothing to do I can only sit in my room and sleep at my desk.... it's too inconvenient for my friend's to come up to campus to pick me up or whatever.
I also talked to a friend about how I wish I had someone to just lay around with and talk to for hours about nothingness and also the most important tidbits about my life. Instead I just have books to read and homework to console me... it's rather depressing. Handling all the valentine cards that people get in the mail makes me depressed; seeing all the cute couples makes me lonely; seeing friends eating dinner together while I usually just bring stuff from BJ's to my room is sooo sad. But what do I do? I'm too busy and too damn tired.
Ugh.. I need to review a bit more for my quiz. At least another 9/10 for me as it is but I want to be extra sure!
But I know I've also been pushing away my problems. Recently I hung out with Dan and we talked (or rather, I mostly listened) and it made me realize how truly lonely I have become. I know a lot of people - almost everywhere I go I find someone I know. But they're just acquaintances or 'close' friends I don't hang out with anymore or rarely. I do have friends I talk to on a regular basis but even then we rarely see each other. So when I'm bored and have nothing to do I can only sit in my room and sleep at my desk.... it's too inconvenient for my friend's to come up to campus to pick me up or whatever.
I also talked to a friend about how I wish I had someone to just lay around with and talk to for hours about nothingness and also the most important tidbits about my life. Instead I just have books to read and homework to console me... it's rather depressing. Handling all the valentine cards that people get in the mail makes me depressed; seeing all the cute couples makes me lonely; seeing friends eating dinner together while I usually just bring stuff from BJ's to my room is sooo sad. But what do I do? I'm too busy and too damn tired.
Ugh.. I need to review a bit more for my quiz. At least another 9/10 for me as it is but I want to be extra sure!